Yesterdayyy in Life

Seems so very farrr away.

So yesterday wasn’t a great day, obviously. I spent most of it in silent brooding while I played with Elly and gave Pam little more than one word answers. She knew something was up but also I didn’t want to talk about it so that was an impass.

Without reading the comments on my last entry (personal rule of mine, don’t read before you write) I eventually got ‘over’ it and moved on but lemme tell you, there wasn’t a cellphone in sight for the better part of the night yesterday so I think she got the drift or realized herself that it was rude.

NOW. Moving forward. What’s Adam gonna do? Adam is gonna mention the problem as it happens, yes he is. Instead of spending a day brooding, if there is an issue like that at dinner I’m gonna say something in the moment not just stare in aghast disbelief.

Still I worry about the kind of example she’s setting for Elly but at some point all I can really control is the example that I’M setting for Elly.

I dunno. People who do most of the work around the house, do you delegate other members of your family? Does one of us need to be the manager? I never grew up with a full family unit so it was always just my dad or just my mom doing all the work (as single parents) So do I have to set out a chore list for Pam and be like “Okay Pam today you need to clean the washroom”? to some degree I feel that it’s obvious that I’m still learning as I go but neither Pam nor I have great role models to base our actions off of which leaves us to stew and blunder our way though our problems.

I see that I have a few comments on the last entry so thank you to those who suffered through my bottom barrel depression to leave me tips and thank you to PB for being here as an outlet. I know that if I didn’t express those thoughts yesterday this would have been a week long issue but now I know it’s something that I just have to keep an eye on and set boundries? I guess? I dunno man, I’m still learning.