Fuck You! No...Wait...I Mean I Love You! Come Back! in Hello

I'm feeling pretty much 100% since getting sick. However I haven't had a cigarette since Tuesday last week.

I. Want. To. Murder. People.

And that's just it! I've not talked to anyone, I just...gah...after I eat I usually smoke. Drive to/from work? Smoke! Breaks at work? Smoke! There is a reason I was at a pack a day habit. Despite the cravings though...for the first time I'm in my life I'm completely straight edge. No drinking. No drugs. No smoking. Gave up the weed for the job and really...I don't miss it. I was pretty much done getting high when I started school back in Fall '12. Just most everyone there smoked and we all started going to lunch together, someone was bound to have some and well...you see where this is going.

Yesterday, after seeing Melissa, I rode by the Deep to say hi to my buddy Robbie seeing how the day was still young and I had cabin fever from being at home due to illness. Mentioned the above paragraph, phrased down of course. His response..."Wow, how boring your life must be." Really dude? Really? You're 33 years old and can't put down the weed pipe for more than a few HOURS without getting pissy...I'm not going to get into it but...my life is awesome now. I can finally say that. It's taken me a long time to get to this point but I can finally just sit in a room by myself without having to be under the influence of something.

I'm happy man, are you?

...still want menthol goodness...this too shall pass...

Last updated March 31, 2014