Ace of Wands reversed and Recovery in Weight Loss Surgery

Aces are gifts from God, the start of something new and wands are usually the sign of creativity and action. But it reverse maybe the action is stalled a little?

The book does denote a period of “lack luster” and “deflation”. A “thumbs down” to something you may have wanted to come immediately. But advises to resist those feelings because this isn’t the end of your opportunities.

I also got the Angel Answers card of Recovery, which advises to take time to regain strength. Strategize you healing - take small steps towards the big picture lifestyle you want with gratitude. But keep it private so no one else can put it down.

These cards are me right now, as much as I don’t want to admit it.

I am SUPER happy that the surgery is covered and I am happy that we have made our appointments in August to begin the qualification process.

But the discrepancy between the wait time for us to get the surgery is disappointing. Basically it can be as short as 3 months time or as long as 6 months. And you know how impatient I am to get this surgery and begin my “new life”. I’m ready NOW.

But I’ve been trying not to dip in to those feelings of disappointment. I do believe that what you think about, you bring about and I don’t want to focus on how bad I would feel if it got delayed 6 months. I want to think about how HAPPY I would be if they told us it would only be 3 months.

But I guess, even as much as I have been blessed in situations, my first thought always goes to the fact that what I want won’t happen. That I won’t be that “lucky”. But that’s also Not True! I’ve been super lucky and I AM grateful for all I have. I do love my life.

So I’m going to do my best to focus everyday on how happy I am right now and how happy I WILL be when they confirm with us that we won’t have to wait 6 months! I’m really going to try to FEEL that energy now, that happiness that will overflow from head to toe when they tell me I don’t have to wait that max amount of time to get my surgery. How happy Will will be as well because I AM SURE he is SURE that we’ll have to wait the full 6 months - and that’s only because he’s a negative nancy. BUT I am the opposite and I combat all that away.

I mean, hell, he didn’t even think insurance would cover it and now we know they will.

This step is just the next step for me in proving to him (once again) that good things do happen to us and for us. That we are blessed!

Welp, I certainly got some lackluster news - we have to wait 6 months, not 3 for surgery. So I guess I’m not getting this surgery until 2021. I’m really disheartened about it. When I told Will he was like”ok”. Doesn’t he care?!

I think he’ll always be in the mindset that he’s not gonna get what he wants so he probably already conditioned himself to believe we were gonna have to wait 6 months, not 3, so he was fine with the news when he heard it.

Ugh, but me. I’m SO IMPATIENT.

Last updated December 20, 2020