quiet contemplation in A new start

I don’t feel as though I truly stress about money, we are doing ok this year. I mean I’m getting child support consistently from both fathers. However he isn’t working as much as he was last year, obvious cause is covid 19. He should be getting into the busy season but we shall see how that goes. It would be nice if he could actually do his position but whatever. I was very thankful for the last stimulus check. We paid down credit cards and an er bill. Some is still floating in our account. Can’t forget the fact I had to take my car into the shop, stupid belt. But I sit here thinking about the possible next stimulus offering. What would we do with that? Well it depends on what it comes out as. If it’s just like the last we pay off the bills we paid down last time and get the truck going. If it’s the bigger one floating around we do those things listed prior and we work on the house so we can sell the stupid thing and save some. I’m not counting on any of it.

My oldest will be 12 in August. She has that attitude already but she still acts like a 5 year old when it comes to boys. Eww they stink and they are gross, etc etc. She has known this one boy since kindergarten and at one time had a crush on him even though she acted like she didn’t like him. I’ve teased her since kindergarten about him. His twin is my oldest’s best friend so she sees him a lot. The sister made the comment that my kid talks to him more than her. I’m pretty sure there is something there even if he stinks and is annoying(her words). I mean he spent all day here Sunday, without his sister. Mostly just him and my daughter outside. I have nothing against him, he’s not a horrible kid. Just not the best.

Still trying to figure out what to do with the house. My husband wants to do some (imho) questionable work to it. I think it will look ugly but what do I know? His way would save money… maybe. I just want out. I would almost take a loss just to be free of it. But I’m not completely there yet. It’s not horrible here, my dogs just need more room and the longer I wait the less likely we can get my friend’s house. However in about 17 months we can qualify for a rehab loan that would give us more options so we could wait it out, but I don’t want to. Everything happens for a reason when it needs to happen so I need to sit back and wait for it.

The state park nearest me is now open. I am so happy. I have a two year parking pass for state parks I can start using now. Though honestly that park is best in the summer when its hot. The kids can swim and I can sit back and enjoy.

I guess I’m headed out. Bed time soon.