Leave well enough alone. in Since OD is shutting down....

I was fine until I had my Mom call my brother to see if I could see my niece today and apparently, they are still pissed that I quit talking to everyone for awhile because I was upset about losing my car and my boyfriend. I'm not allowed to ever make a mistake because if I do, it's never forgiven. I'm not allowed to fuck up. No one takes any responsibility for what part they played in never helping me which contributed to me having to trade the car in. I lost thousands of dollars, the car and my boyfriend over the span of 6 months and I'm STILL trying to rebuild from it emotionally. Sorry that I felt betrayed by everyone including my own family who did nothing but use me and take advantage of me during the worst time of my entire life and I got pissed and crossed everyone off so now, until they decide they are done punishing me for it, I won't see my niece which hurts me more than I care to describe. I'm not going to ask her to bug him about it anymore because apparently, not only his girlfriend gets pleasure from keeping the kid from me, but so does he. Okay, well I need to learn to just suck it up and forget about it.

It just kills me that I lost everything and that's STILL not enough. I lost the 2 most important things that meant so much and that wasn't enough. I can't write anymore. Gonna go shower.