Swiss Cheese in Hello

I’ve been on the Swiss machines since last week. The stuff I’m running seems simple enough but I do feel mentally drained at the end of the shift.

Currently laying in bed. Took some melatonin to help with the transition into the state of tired but now Peacock is on the phone with her mom. I kinda wanted to fool around again before this kicked in but looks like I won’t get that opportunity.

Sobriety is going good. No cravings for a while now, however, since I’ve changed stations at work I do feel myself a bit more stressed than usual. The added weight of all that fuels the negativity that the addiction part of the brain uses to try and trick me into relapsing. Old, cringe worthy scenarios replay in my head and it can be a difficult task to escape. It reinforces this awful stereotype I have of myself which only brings me down.

See!
Being sober allows me to critically analyze and explain things in a coherent manner!

Anyways, pills are kicking in and this bed is comfy despite a phone conversation going on.

Nite nite…