sweet nothings in 2020

11:56pm

I wish I had more time to come in here and update. I wish I made more time to come in here to update.

I just had this super sweet weekend with EC and I want to document it all but I’m not coming in here the way I used to.

I want to find a way to say more. I hope to find it soon.

For now though. He said such sweet things to me. That he wanted this for eternity. How much he loves me. How I’ve become his best friend. How he’d basically given up before he found me.

All the right words. All the words I’d love to hear. And they were beautiful and amazing (and maybe I cried a little).

But I’m still so messed up inside, and having such a hard time healing, that it’s hard to accept the words at face value. I want to. I need to.

It would be great to be able to process this all in a better way. Tiny phones at midnight is probably not the best way.

rose.