Dream baby in In My World

I had a dream the other night and it’s been fucking with me. I’ll spare most of the details but the big main thing was that I was pregnant and spotting. I remember thinking “I dont want to lose this one too” I was looking for my mom to ask her if I should worry whether or not when I woke up. I had that familiar ache, longing when I woke up. I couldnt shake it for the whole day that day.

I’ve been thinking about it, maybe too much.

I saw a baby onesie today and I dont know why but it spoke to me. I wish I could start a hope chest…

Maybe I should make a journal for it.

The ache and the longing haven’t gone away completely and I have cramps today which just doesn’t help.

Ugh.