Hey yo, first world problems check in Current Events

I believe this is my third entry today? My gut health is not happy. I need to eat something that doesn’t come out of a can or a package! I want a whole food cooked meal desperately! I am ready to start grazing our fucking lawn like the herbivore that I am… that is my first world rant for the day…NOT! Although, two hours ago I was saying that I wanted something deep-fried, coated in sugar and deep-fried again and that I wanted to eat it off Liam Hemsworth’s face. I’m tomplicated. I can’t just eat a Hemsworth face though? Would that be vegan? Only if it is consensual. I’ll make it to the store tomorrow for sure… My list is just so overwhelming. Speaking of consensual, I follow vegan content on IG and I know the risks of seeing footage of animal cruelty without asking for it and today I saw something that made my grown-ass cry. Skip to the next paragraph or leave if you don’t want to know… I watched a turtle get its shells carved off alive and you could see its heart beating and now I can’t unsee that. My anger seems to be more directed at the photographer for publishing that than the person performing that act. We’ve gone too far Vishnu come and defend Dharma I beg of you. I said before how people want things to go back to normal but I don’t think normal was working. This current crisis does offer us all a higher path in the end. Just saying.

The mouse for my computer is dumb or something and it isn’t working properly which completely affected my gameplaying so I had to give up on using Skyrim to create distance from myself. Nothing seems to interest me much anymore, TV, movies and music I mean. (Though I’m currently obsessed with Set if all Free from the movie Sing… even though I was listening to Otep in the same day lmao.) I’m also running out of things to watch on YouTube. I went out of my way to learn about Buddhism, Hinduism and Shikism today and that somehow led to me to research if Europeans… ok, white people are all the same race. Plot twist, no. A very very long what is wrong with you no. My phenotype is deceiving I’m actually two thirds caucasian and I was just randomly curious, sue me. Anyway, the universe then sent me a link to a site where I can get a degree in nutrition online and the price for it is not so bad! I’ll have to look into it more before I even consider signing up. Hetal got her pharmacy license through courses online. She had to fly around the country for exams but there has to be a way for me to get a dietic license via the internet. Of course, that was the plan after I established myself with some job security. That was going well until along came COVID-19. Hey yo, first world problems check. I read some stories of how much male escorts make and what their situations are like and how much internet hookers on OnlyFans make as well! If I was a twink I would just do it. (Not true) Salad! I hate salad but I just want a big fucking salad right now! Something fresh and raw. That last sentence is my caption on Grindr. Kidding! My Grindr profile doesn’t say anything because I apparently think that I am hot shit and I expect my selfies to speak for myself…? What is wrong with me right now? Oh right, I forgot to take my meds today and possibly yesterday. I get so confused about if I took them or not and I don’t want to overdose so I just don’t… yeah. I could take them right now but I would have to eat and I don’t eat after 7 pm because I’m dat bitch. Man, I’m looking forward to tomorrow! It’s another fine day indoors… after I risk my life and the lives of everybody I live with to go get some groceries. I mean I could go for a run or walk as I barely live inside the city but I miss people! I was tempted to return to Facebook but then I remembered how awful everybody is on there. In my little world anyway. Ok. I think I’m tired enough to sleep now without the help of my prescription. Wet dreams! I mean sweet dreams?

Last updated April 08, 2020