Sad and Tired in In My World

I typed up a long letter to a friend of mine who died in January because something reminded me of him and I was sad. I felt better about that but now I'm just sad in general.

I was sad before I thought about him and I'm sad now. I don't even know what's wrong. This shit needs to stop. I can't deal with it. I don't want to cry all day because when people ask why I won't have an answer for them.

It's 7:03, I haven't slept, and I have to be awake at 11. I can't do this.

I'm just so tired...