And then I was laid off in Current Events

Well, it happened. Due to this pandemic the company had decided to let go of 75% of its staff. They made that decision at 3am this morning. I did not make the cut. I suspected it the moment I walked in that Becky with the good hair was going to be forced to do that. Forced to let people go I mean. The grimace on her face gave it away. I asked what the deciding factor was about not keeping me and she explained how she wished that she had more time to make these decisions but she took my address into consideration. I live out of the way. She cried letting me go. I know that she didn’t cry over anybody else. She promised me that I am top pick when she gets to hire again if I’m interested when that time comes. I was the heart and soul and light through all of this chaos of getting the store together. She couldn’t make the decision personal and I get that.

I was treated with so much more dignity this time around, being fired I mean. My previous employers sat me down and tried to gang up on me and gaslight me. So I don’t know what I’m going to do but I don’t have to figure it all out tonight. I won’t be so afraid this time around, looking for work I mean. I have my mini action plan. I accept that I don’t have control of their decision so I’m not angry or bitter. I’m sad because I started to make some friends there. Ok, just one! Michelle. I said goodbye to her on my way out and explained why I was leaving. She immediately got stressed and I didn’t even think how that would affect her that way. She was worried about losing her position also. Also heartbroken to see me go, of course. She’s a sweetheart.

It’s weird, I’ve been seeing synchronicities again and I’ve been kind of relaxed a bit because I feel like I’m being guided. I sound crazy! I know. I knew that this job wasn’t going to last. I didn’t get that haircut I wanted, I didn’t start a new budget… But I just felt like something was coming or going that I needed. Maybe this was it? I have faith. I didn’t see any of those synchronicities today but whatever. I didn’t exactly love the job itself but now I have all the experience from it that I wanted for my resume. I’ll figure it out. I tend to land on my feet. Bev calls me a magician, she doesn’t know how I lasted this long financially. Yeah, I decided to put on some coffee instead of drinking an obscene amount of wine like I did last time. I’m not alone, millions are affected by this pandemic. I have so many options and resources this time around.