Two things.

1) I am sitting our living room right now. OUR living room. As crowded as it may be with two couches, an easy chair, coffee table, end table and tv table. But it is our's, damnit.

2) I'm taking a pregnancy test tomorrow.

I'm not sure which result I want more. I don't think I am. I don't feel different like I did with Robbie. I'm only a few days late and have been cramping off and on since Monday. I think it may just be my body adjusting to not being on birth control, which I quit due to the side effects.

When I bought the test tonight, I wasn't stressed about it. I'm not worried, I'm very relaxed. This is a complete contrast to the two tests I took nine years ago.

If I am, I will be due in November. If I'm not...I think I will be disappointed.