Awkward in Current Events

I woke up feeling a little guilty because I don’t think I like this new job so far. I’m trying to! It’s not the people I work with or anything. I’m not sure I even know why. It’s pretty early in the game though. I feel like a mindless thrall. I got no job satisfaction from the first day which might have been a high expectation for a first day. Man, we’re so deeply unorganized I can’t stand it. We had thirty of us trying to clock back in after lunch breaks and stuff like that and management got pissy about tardiness. 30 of us trying to share a breakroom too lol. It’s all good though. It’s just four days a week so far. Part-time? Hell yeah! Until payday and my budget starts screaming hell no. I think that I want a management position somewhere after all. Oh well! I’ll just see what today brings. I’ll keep learning the ropes here and then keep an eye out for other stuff? I dunno. I did want to break free from the restaurant gigs so here we are learning planograms and merchandising. Then I’ll be dealing with the Karen’s at the storefront. It’s just all one giant Ikea furniture moment. I hate trying to understand the instructions, I’ve just been winging it and then having to go back and fix it lol. You guy I’m eventually going to have to learn how to operate that pallet lift thingy, gross lol. I love that they’re morning shifts! I feel spoiled about that much. Maybe once we’re done with these tedious planograms I’ll feel less dreadful. The store isn’t open for a few more weeks so that’s all we’re doing right now. Becky with the good hair seems to like me? I was running on a few hours sleep so I wasn’t full-send fabulous. I think she’s going to be a nice boss. A lot of the people I worked with directly turned out to be training for management. I’m infiltrating muahaha.

I got the first day over with though! The crazy high nerves are over. I didn’t know what the breakroom situation was going to be so I didn’t pack a lunch. I prayed that the food court in the mall would have something for me. It didn’t. I bought a bag of veggie straws from Winners and barely even touched those. I barely ate at all yesterday. My nerves were shot. Also, to be honest… I didn’t boom boom and I didn’t want to at the store lol. I’ll have a lunch to bring today lol. If I boom boom before work I’ll drink coffee on my breaks. As I was trolling the mall I remembered that my old customer crush works at the bank in there. I was keeping an eye out for him. I just want to sit on his face and get MeToo’d. I slept a bit better last night also. I struggled to fall asleep though. I need to tame my mind. It’s not negative or anything. It just doesn’t stop. I was also pretty amped up from starting the second season of Altered Carbon. I was just dead and over it halfway through the shift yesterday man. I don’t want to be so sleep deprived this time. I’m bringing something for a headache this time also. I’m not a take something for a headache kind of girl but it’s so dusty in there. Maybe today I won’t feel like I”m falling asleep installing 1 157 124 racks on shelves. I tried talking to people to help me stay awake but… they’re boring lol.

Anyways. Ta