8 of swords, Ace of wands-r, 2 of wands in tarot journey

past:
eight of swords
A woman, bound and hoodwinked, with the words of the card about her.
Divinatory meaning: Bad news, violent chargin, crisis, censure, power in trammels, conflict, calumny-also sickness.
Reversed: disquiet, difficulty, opposition, accident, treachery, the unforeseen, fatality.

present:
Ace of wands
A hand issuing from a cloud a stout wand or club.
Divinatory meaning: creation, invention, enterprise, the powers which result in these, principle, beginning, source, birth, family, origin, the beginning of enterprises, according to another account- money fortune, inheritance
Reversed: Fall, decadence, ruin, perdition, to perish, also clouded joy.

Future:
Two of wands
A tall man looks from a battlemented roof over sea and shore. He holds a globe in his right hand and a staff in his left rests on the battlement, another is fixed to the battlement in a ring. The rose, cross, and lily should also be notices on the left side.
Divinatory meaning: Between the alternative readings there is no marriage possible, on the one hand riches, fortune, magnificence. And on the other, physical suffering, disease, chargin, sadness, mortification. The design gives one suggestion - here is a lord overlooking his dominion and alternately contemplating a globe. It looks like the malady, the mortification, the sadness of Alexander amidst the grandeur of this world’s wealth.
Reversed: Surprise, wonder, enchantment, emotion, trouble, fear

Past: Whatever bad news, violence, sickness.... I”m glad it’s in the past.... other than this Mineiere’s disease.... I can’t think of anything that may have been life altering.

Present:
I sold the jacket last night.... and clouded joy, possible fall, ruin.... they lie here… (see next entry, give me a bit I and sprinkling in housework and have at least 2-3 more entries to get it this morning)

Future: “no marriage is possible”?.... honestly with multiple meanings it means exactly what it says to me.... on one hand the business taking off and working for us to a point that I’m not working a regular job. On the other I’d be glad for it because of this disease and the physical suffering/sadness it causes me.... it’s not going to just go away. Seems like I’ve been getting a significant amount of “hope for the future” kinds of cards here lately.... I’m cool with that :)