concussions. and this guy greg. and sprains. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD

and no i didn’t get another one. concussion that is. thank god cause well. i didn’t need the first one. no one offline knows i got it but i mean. that wouldn’t help, them knowing so. no it’s just. the 23rd or so of last month um. it was 2 yrs. since i got it so that. was hard. i’m amazed i didn’t like die...........a little over 2 yrs. ago. no really i actually could’ve cause i hit my brain stem. and it’s funny cause i have depression and not afraid. of dying. but like wow. when someone is recovering from a tbi. at the time it’s like. there’s nothing mild. about it even though yes. it was a mild tbi or mtbi.
so. and then. like i said the 19th. of last month i found out that lane had. passed. so i mean........yeah that was a difficult few days of course.
um. so this guy greg. well greg. is someone i know from boarding school and we got to talking on fb. and he asked me something about my finances. and i was raised w/ the belief. that finances weren’t to be discussed w/ anyone. and i told him ‘it’s personal’ and then he asks another question about the topic......... [and right now i don’t want to put what] and i told him again something like ‘it’s personal’ and he’s ‘um i don’t know you that well but. i’m blunt’ yeah no i got that. i hate. when guys do that when they don’t listen. and. now we’re done talking. i don’t really know him that well so it’s not like there’s a lot of love lost between us, as there isn’t really. um. and btw i’m aware not all guys are like that.
and sprains.
um so i sprained my ankle on thurs. btw no advice please. as usual. yeah i got distacted when crossing the st. made it across the way............and. fell. and i didn’t know, i’d sprained it untill a few mins. later. um this guy who works at a hotel came running over wen i’d stood up and he’s ‘are you ok?’ yeah i was fine just very surprised. no but i don’t like. when random people ask. like if i fall and a random person happens to notice. please don’t ask if i’m ok. it’s embarassing and awkward. like god. no um apparently that caused a setback cause i got dizzy. i also don’t like when random people like hotel staff and such are just asking/saying things to be nice and they don’t actually mean it.
like i’m sore which means i’m irritable. i haven’t done a whole lot this weekend and i don’t usually. but it’s a good thing i didn’t. and i won’t do much about it cause i’m paranoid someone offline will find out. i mean well. drinking helps w/ the pain. like i won’t take pills i’ll drink. pills are a really bad idea for me cause of my depression. yeah there’s a reason i don’t buy them. even if no one offline knew. i just. yeah no. like 4 pills per dose would work for me but.............bc i have depression. no. and i hate the idea of being protected of having someone like. keep the pills and then however often dole out 4. yeah we did that like a little over a yr. ago w/ the vit. and it didn’t work. which is why i stopped taking them. at the house..........also my rigidity so. [i’ve written about this in prior entries and don’t feel like repeating myself so.]. anyway i’m getting off track.
so. yeah last wk. was a difficult wk. physically.

Last updated February 17, 2020