Yeah in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020

She’s safe. She returned. She says that she drank too much to drive home. She also says they never even got to the movies she brought over because they talked so much. She also says that they are “just friends.”

Mostly… I say… I’m glad she’s safe. I’m super glad she’s safe. But this proves the point of the separation. Like… in dolby digital THX definition. She doesn’t have the ability to consider my emotions, thoughts, or existence.

I get that it is a “brain processing” issue. And I feel like a total cad… I feel shitty… for ending a relationship because of Autism or ADHD. But at the same time.... I can’t help but think… someone ELSE’S brain functioning issue isn’t MY problem to solve. She needs to figure out how to be an adult, how to have a mature relationship, how to exist. It isn’t MY JOB to do that for her. So… I can accept that I feel shitty for leaving my wife due to a problem she can’t control… but I need to accept that it is a problem she also has done nothing to manage. I’m not leaving someone for having cancer… I’m leaving someone for not TREATING cancer. Perhaps a distinction without a difference, but something I need to embrace.