Lost friends in Journal 2020

Since they diary I’ve made many friends. And I’ve lost many of them. I started to wonder if I’m the problem and reason why but I can’t find anyway to prove that. If so it must be my personality, but what part of it?

I have sat on it from now and just thought about losing Lili as a friend. It hurt, it stills does but I will move past it and PROVE o can survive