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After that trip to the hospital to make sure my daughter was still alive, I drove back home. Adrenaline kept me awake until2 hours before my shift was to begin. I saddled up, and drove into work...

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Several weeks ago, I received a phone call from my daughter. She was in school - and clearly distraught - in tears. “Mommy…“ When your 15 year old tearfully reverts to calling you ‘mommy’, you...

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‘Damn, Sharon - if I knew then what I know now, things would be a WHOLE LOT DIFFERENT, let me tell ya!’ If you haven’t said something similar, you’ve thought it - you know you have! It has been ...

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I rewrote this entry (originally posted a few days back…and now removed) so that rather than leaving my church family, I could give them an update, letting them know where I am in this grieving p...

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When my boys were little, I would lie beside them at night and would pray with them that the Divine watch carefully watch over their soul-mate - that they would grow strong, generous of self, lov...

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Much has happened in my life, besides grieving. There has been growth; a definite up-tick in confidence; boldness; acceptance of my strength; sensuality; sexuality; a clearing of the mind; a des...

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New diagnosis now includes Meniere’s and MAV. Back and forth we go on this one, right? Here’s the scoop: Late in December, my sister reported to me that one of her dearest friends used to suffer...

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Her pain is running deep, these days. Thick and messy on the outside, and narrowing to a fine point which finds it’s target at the center of her very soul. The brick wall she’d put up was plain t...

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Me: The most difficult thing in my life right now? The loneliness. Counselor: MJ, it has only been 5 months. I remember how it was at that point in my life, too. But I have successfully chosen t...

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I can’t do it. I’ve had my fingers hovering over the keyboard throughout the day, searching for the words to express my love to my husband. What a word, ‘love’. If you pay heed to society’s insis...

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I can’t do it. I’ve had my fingers hovering over the keyboard throughout the day, searching for the words to express my love to my husband. What a word, ‘love’. If you pay heed to society’s insis...

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The undercurrent of sadness began to pick up momentum recently now that all of the physical stuff such as selling and relocating has been completed. Little did I realize, I was dealing with the g...

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From my private journal: September 15th (the day before one of our anniversaries): For all my strength, and for all my pragmatism, there are moments like right this second, where the waves of sad...

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Last night - a man I’ve known for several months now, did something that might well have changed me forever. Barely a whisper, breathless, he told me that I was exquisite, a magnificent, graceful...

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For a writer, there is no such thing as a yes or no answer to: You okay? -Woke around 8, and just lazed in bed until nine. Beautiful morning. Threw open all the windows and invited in this awesom...

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My grief counselor isn’t sure what to make of me. Although she is encouraging and happy for me, I suspect she’s waiting for the other shoe to drop which, in turn, has me waiting for the same. The...

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I’ve talked about it here, before, and I’m afraid I’m back at it, again. Experiencing a need for the intimacy of casual touch....,and maybe even not so casual. I am reminded of the days follo...

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The whole point of my last entry was that since I wasn’t happy with how things were rolling down the pike, I made a change. I didn’t change my job......I changed me and my outlook. I began to r...

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A couple of weeks ago, the account manager fired my son (who works for the same company I work for). Before long, rumor had it that she was concerned that I would be upset. Once off work that Tu...

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It was ugly! Tuesday, I left my security job and headed towards my director’s job – feeling anxious. We are set to close on the house at 9am, Friday morning – not that this is a problem. In fa...

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...is now bare.

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The 30 cu. yd. dumpster was delivered on Friday morning in anticipation of a crew of 7, who would arrive Saturday morning to help plow through David's garage, and throw out what amounted to 30+ y...

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IT has been determined, based on my account, and the account of witnesses, along with Officer Hammontree's response to the department's follow-up, that my grievance was founded. Officer Hammon...

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Alright! Turns out, I'm imperfect. I am. I am quick to judge. So, Sunday afternoon, I received a phone call from my friend, asking if I would go out with him that evening. I was in the midd...

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This is me back in January: And this is me from last weekend: I was pretty much of a coward, refusing to have my picture taken from the neck down - but there IS a 35 lb difference between t...

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