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Earth is a great place to visit, but I wouldn't want to live here.
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“Let me in, I’m cold…all messed up with nowhere to go…you’ve got indecision, and indecision is my enemy…unlock the cabinet, I’ll take whatever you’ve got.” I can’t stop listening to the album “G...
Walk around the city at night…it’s cold, but it’s not that cold. Sometimes it smells nice, like pastries and coffee. Sometimes it smells like Thai food. Sometimes it smells like piss and shit....
Dirty water…smells like orange Rockstars and vodka. Smells like dirty clothes and dirty hair and sleeping on the floor. Smells like getting kicked out of the new house you just moved into only ...
I was too pumped from that show last night, I didn’t end up falling asleep until something close to 5 in the morning. And then I slept in today until 1:30 PM. I usually wake up around 9 or 10 e...
The last few weeks. in Questions
Tonight, I was on the guest list for Saosin’s final sold out concert. It was one of the best shows I’ve been to in a long time, maybe one of the best shows I’ve ever been to. How has my life be...
Petulance and pestilence and prejudice and pride. Pedantic and romantic and traumatic and tried…and true…ish For a fellow to be mellow below the belt Should he melt? Is it like ice when he sat th...
Parties in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.
I didn’t respond to any of the notes on my last entry, but I am grateful for all of the condolences, I truly am, I just don’t think I can handle the reality of it all right now, and I’ve had so m...
I am back. in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.
I guess it’s been kind of a while since I have written in here…and truth be told, the only reason I’m even back is because my friend Zane challenged me to do a journal entry tonight. I told him ...
So lately, I’ve been testing my own fences for weak spots, like the raptors in Jurassic Park, except twice as frightening. Every day is a little dance to see how close to “too far” I can go with...
“Now I have to show you some circles before you could get a good grasp on one of my full fledged spirals.” I’m starting to get to the point where I am feeling like I am strong and I don’t need a...
Cross faded/or: Cross Examined. in Questions
Is there a person in your life that can always make you smile? No. No one can actually MAKE me smile, nor do I have anyone I rely on for that particular form of mind control. I do have friends t...
How was my Thanksgiving? Hmmm. It was alright, I guess? I had tacos. I love tacos. My dad and Kari were going to Kari’s family for Thanksgiving, and I don’t have any real problems with those p...
OkCupid in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.
I just created a new OkCupid account last night when I was drinking. So today I was like, “Let’s keep this shit going!” So after I got off work I just got a bunch of booze and I hopped back on O...
Another survey/ avoidance techniques in Questions
Be honest; name of the last person to text you? Why would I not be honest about this? You’re weird man. It was my friend, Dave Harris…he’s a really cool guy and we have really cool conversation...
Surveys to avoid reality. in Questions
I’m feeling too shitty right now to actually write an entry, but I want to write and sit here and drink this beer and feel like I am connecting to something greater than myself, so I am going to ...
So many stupid questions. in Questions
1.) What were you doing at 11 last night? I was laying on the couch, across from my dad, I was texting my friend Zane and my dad was watching some Marvel show. I was also loving on the dog. 2.) ...
The trial for my nephews murder is on a temporary hiatus for the holiday season, so my parents are back in town. I’m glad they are back…I feel like such a child, but this empty house was driving...
My family is up in Northern California right now, attending the trial of the murder of my infant nephew. It happened almost two years ago…it’s probably the most disgusting thing I can think abou...
One week. in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.
I made it an entire week without having a drink, but then today I jammed with my buddy and now I’m drinking. waaah waaaah. I never said I was going to quit forever. It feels great to be jammin...
Flying man in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.
I finally booked my flight to SLC, only to find out that my mom and two of my sisters are going to be in another state attending to some dumb bullshit that I can’t even talk about. So I need to ...
I always get weird in the fall…the world gets darker and colder. I have strange floods, memories, they rush in and fill me up and make me cold and wet. I miss my grandparents. I miss actual se...
Changes in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.
I’ve made a lot of changes this last week, small changes, but probably important ones. I’ve been exercising, I actually got my bike fixed. It’s not like I’m going crazy or anything, but I’ve be...
Cut Off in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.
(This entry was from a few nights ago and I got cut off half way through when I lost internet connection. I didn’t know this site was going to save it. So I am going to publish this and then writ...
I’m bad at reading other peoples diaries on here…I just come here to vent and dump. Right now I’m stuck on how bad of a grandson I am. My grandpa is dying, as we speak…he’s in the hospital, the...
I saw my therapist today. We decided that I am going to start exercising and quit napping…I mean, those are mainly her ideas, but I kind of agree with them…I mean, I know exercising will be good ...
