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Earth is a great place to visit, but I wouldn't want to live here.
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So, I haven’t talked to Brittany in quite some time now. I don’t know how long it’s been, but definitely over a month. She’s complicated because I’ve known her for several lifetimes, so we have…...
I’m trying to keep a dream journal as part of the lucid dreaming project, but so far I haven’t remembered my dreams either night since I’ve started. So…I dunno, maybe I should cut back on the flo...
I’m trying to keep a dream journal as part of the lucid dreaming project, but so far I haven’t remembered my dreams either night since I’ve started. So…I dunno, maybe I should cut back on the flo...
So…dating…what a topic. Why have I decided I want to start dating all of the sudden? I don’t know…maybe it’s the episode I have every spring? Maybe I just want to fuck? I’m intimidated at the ...
I felt fine all day at orientation, it was good seeing my old bosses in a new setting and I work with some of my old co-workers that I really get along with, so it was cool, everything was cool. ...
So, I wrote this whole long entry…and it was basically just some cry baby tirade about how mad I am at tattoo culture, and I said a lot of really means things…that I actually meant, but that I di...
I just don’t ever want to lose or forget this: “One more thing: I prayed for a friend like you for years. I swear to god. You are totally one of the most captivating, beautiful and sweetest huma...
Unrequited in Questions
I feel guilty for the way I feel…or maybe, the way I don’t feel? I feel like, maybe there’s something wrong with me, like maybe I’m not seeing something obvious. When we were in Salt Lake City,...
Angel of Punishment in Questions
Two days in a row now I’ve drawn Kushiel: Angel of Punishment, as my divination for the day. It’s not a good card I’m being called out for something…and I had a feeling I knew what it was, but I...
I’m compelled to sit down and write right now. I’ve also been feeling the call to start painting again…last night I almost picked up a pen and started doodling…I came really close. On this road ...
I haven’t had a job for about a week and a half. I quit my job because I had another one lined up, but the starting date for that job keeps getting pushed back. I’m not worried about it, I’m just...
Real life talk in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.
I can’t spend all of my time thinking about the fourth dimension. Sometimes I need to remember that I’m right here, right now. …I’m actually really good at living in “the now”. Probably too goo...
Mixed states are something that are relatively new to me…I can’t remember if they started before I began my medication or not…I feel like they may have, but I was just talking to someone last nig...
My entire life I have had a reactive merkaba, and for the first time in my life I am working on tuning it to be active. I’ve been having moments of near ascension lately, and I can only assume t...
Alive and well in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.
I haven’t been on here in a long time. There are so many reasons for my absence, but I don’t really want to get into any of them right now, or maybe ever…probably never. I think I should start a...
Where to even start... in Questions
So, I guess it’s been a long time since I’ve written anything in here…and I don’t really know why that is, and to be completely honest, I don’t really know why I’m writing right now. I don’t real...
I’ve been taking a little break from everything. Sorry I’ve taken a break from this site and I’ve taken a break from replying to comments…I should be replying to every comment and I should be re...
I finished in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.
So, today I got my certificate for the coding bootcamp that I’ve been in for the last six months. Not everyone made it…one guy dropped super early, the other class had about half the class drop,...
Space is the place in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.
I talked to Golnar for a few hours tonight and that was really nice because she’s been out of town for the last two weeks…and I’ve been missing her a ton. People always ask why we don’t just dat...
More dreams in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.
Last night I had a dream that I was hanging out with one of my best friends, Wesley, but I had all of this candy that I got from a school party, and the candy gave you a ton of energy, very simil...
FireBreather in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.
“My name is Elohim, and I am come to be your god.” … I got to a point, once, when I was practicing controlling and using my Theta energy, where I could control fire with my breath…and then I got...
My skin in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.
I’m having one of those nights where I wish I could crawl out of my own skin and get the fuck away from every nerve ending I’ve ever created in this fucking fleshy time machine. I can most defin...
From A basement On The Hill in Questions
I decided that I wanted to hurt tonight, apparently…I sat down and willfully put on the album, “From A Basement On The Hill” by Elliott Smith. I’m one track in right now and I’m already feeling ...
Absence in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.
I have been absent. I know this. I have been struggling with a very deep depression that has been ruling my waking life with 12-16 hours of sleep. It’s all I can do to do the bare minimum and ...
Software engineering makes me feel stupid. I must be stupid. I am stupid. Hello, my name is( { myName: “dumb person” } ); yeah…whatever…we’re not here to talk about that though…or are we? Oh, ...
