AlexYourAlterEgo
I'm Australian. But I live in America. New Mexico, to be exact. I do not like New Mexico. I have 1 x husband. I have 1 x dog. I have 0 x children. I will forever mourn the loss of David Bowie.
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Ouchie - 16.12.13 in Your Face
My muscles ache after yesterday's painting efforts. Weird ones, like my shins and deep inside my feet. Tonight I made chicken soup for dinner. It was very enjoyable and I have leftovers. I wa...
Housesitting - 15.12.13 in Your Face
I am housesitting for my sister's fiance's auntie and uncle. I have been working my freckle off lately, between my job, working with my brother and helping my mother paint the outside of her hou...
Baby Steps - 06.12.13 in Your Face
I could really use a cuddle today. From M, not just any old cuddle. I have taped, weighed and transported 3 boxes to the storage area at work. Today I washed my car for the first time in about...
Burnt - 02.12.13 in Your Face
Submitted my essay this afternoon after work. I am officially burnt out. Feeling very braindead. M emailed me 2 videos of Ernie experiencing snow. I am sad that I missed it, but he does seem...
Going Nowhere - 01.12.13 in Your Face
Have an essay due tomorrow - it's in dreadful shape. Have been working on it in my office all weekend and am feeling very tired. Need to push though, though. It's already late. Today I feel h...
Down - 29.11.13 in Your Face
17 weeks today since I put him on that plane. Today I feel sad that I missed Thanksgiving and will soon miss Christmas with him.
Positive Steps - 26.11.13 in Your Face
I'm trying to take small steps to try and combat the things in my life that are sucky. Today I took one box over for storage at my job. Tomorrow I will take another. I need some space in this ...
Irritable - 25.11.13 in Your Face
I'm so sad that I missed Ernie's first encounter with snow. I don't know how I feel today. I am extremely short tempered. I am far from happy, but I am not in a depressed black hole. I feel ....
To Him - 17.12.13 in Bucket List
Silly Bernie. I bet the vet thought he was such a handsome, strong little boy. I hope it clears up for him. I am housesitting for Gerard's aunt and uncle. They have some scabby cattle dog cro...
From Him - 17.12.13 in Bucket List
I took the Bernold to the vet on Saturday. He said the lump on Bernie's chest feels like a fat deposit and it's too small to biopsy so I have to monitor it for a month or so. The warts in his mou...
Quash - 24.11.13 in Your Face
So M bought a car yesterday. It looks a bit scuffed, but the inside is clean and it runs well. I am trying hard to quash my hopes, but I can't help feeling a little bit excited that the wheels ...
Crash - 20.11.13 in Your Face
Just hit the ground with a big thump. Feeling very disappointed with M again. No event has sparked it, but that's the entire point. I'm just tired of waiting, of feeling like I hitched myself ...
Damp - 18.11.13 in Your Face
It has been pouring rain for 2 days and everything feels damp. I have had to run errands and ended up soaking wet. It's not cold, though. I called off work today and am feeling very naughty. ...
Boring - 17.11.13 in Your Face
Mother's birthday party was last night (and was lovely). Very tired today, and I just woke up from a 3.5 hour nap. I'd like to sleep longer but I am afraid I won't get to sleep tonight. It's a...
Purge - 15.11.13 in Your Face
I don't really feel like writing about day to day stuff, but I need to purge so that I can hopefully sleep. Woke up feeling strange, began worrying that a migraine was approaching. Took some as...
Up and Down - 11.11.13 in Your Face
I honestly can't guess what mood I will be in from one minute to the next. I spent quite a bit of last night crying my eyes out and just hating my own guts so badly. Resolving to be a better pe...
Onwards - 10.11.13 in Your Face
Finally heard from M today - first I'd heard from him since 17 October. It's upsetting that so much time passed but it also shows how I've thrown myself into my job, I feel like I hardly noticed...
Interruption - 23.11.13 in Your Face
I am behind on my entries at the moment and need to type up the entries I have written in my paper diary, BUT I need to share this: M bought a car today. Might seem like a small thing, but it i...
Alive - 17.11.13 in Your Face
I'm still alive, which most of you know because we're facebook friends. If we're not facebook friends, and you'd like to be, leave me a private note. I'm alright. Somewhere in between a depress...
Why - 05.11.13 in Your Face
I became his friend online because he had a weird sense of humour. He was a shoulder to cry on and a companion. He let me have a small glimpse into his ultra-private life and we started to real...
Angry - 03.11.13 in Your Face
I hate feeling angry all the time. I'm like a wounded bear. I make more and more bad decisions and I just feel like I'm suffocating. I am bitter and cranky. I don't want to waste my life lik...
Unknown - 02.11.13 in Your Face
My boss offered me more money to stay working with him for 12 months. Nowhere near enough money to make it worthwhile, but I have countered with a higher amount and a 6 month term. I am giving ...
How? 30.10.13 in Your Face
I'm not really sure how long I can keep getting up every day and getting on with things. It is hard. I do feel heartbroken. But what else can I do? I have responsibilities to meet. Is this ...
Drip - 29.10.13 in Your Face
My period started today. Joy of joys! What a drag. I have coasted through the last 2 days on the pennies left in my wallet. I am looking forward to getting paid tomorrow and getting somethin...
How Long? 28.10.13 in Your Face
Today a colleague asked me how long I would wait on M before divorcing him. I don't know the answer to that. Past habits indicate that I would wait too long. But it's not at all what I want an...
