AlexYourAlterEgo
I'm Australian. But I live in America. New Mexico, to be exact. I do not like New Mexico. I have 1 x husband. I have 1 x dog. I have 0 x children. I will forever mourn the loss of David Bowie.
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Loathing - 12.05.14 in Your Face
Full of self loathing today. Beating myself up because I am inconsiderate, rude, mean. It doesn't take much to be a nice person, and I do try. I don't know what my problem is where I have to r...
Sad - 11.05.14 in Your Face
It's Sunday, so what else is new? Except this time I am sad at receiving this email from my step mother, which is completely unfounded and out of the blue after not hearing from her for a month:...
20 - 09.05.14 in Your Face
I am not at work today, I am getting picked up in an hour or so to go to the airport, then off to Townsville for a wedding. Which means .... Only twenty days of work left. And of course, I do...
21 - 07.05.14 in Your Face
Absolutely floored by the stupidity of the woman I work with today. And trust me, she does some stupid stuff every damn day, so this is a big thing for me to say. Among other things today, sh...
22 - 06.05.14 in Your Face
Twenty two days of work left. Hammered by a disgusting migraine today. Loss of vision, numb hands and face, inability to speak clearly. It hit me at 8:30am, right at the time I am meant to st...
23 - 05.05.14 in Your Face
Twenty three days of work left. Went to body attack class tonight, hated most of it. Glad I went, though. I was almost convinced to stay for pump class straight after, but wasn't sure how I'd...
Down I Go - 04.05.14 in Your Face
The usual Sunday blues. Picked my sister and her fiance up last night and drove them home because they were drunk. Bickered with my sister in the car because she acts like a complete spanner w...
Ell Oh Ell - 03.05.14 in Your Face
Thursday and Friday passed quickly, which was nice. The Jason Derulo concert was pretty entertaining. I would never have paid money for a ticket, but I still enjoyed the show, great dancers etc...
Bottom Out - 30.04.14 in Your Face
My day ended on a massive low. I don't know what happened, but I ended up being really upset about missing my gym class due to a dumb chain of events, set off by my grandmother (which should not...
Trying - 29.04.14 in Your Face
I'm trying to get my mood up. Today I had a few good moments with my work friend, laughing and being silly. I went to the gym and really struggled through my pump class. Bought a salad to eat ...
Depressing - 28.04.14 in Your Face
What a depressing day to be at work. Coming back from a 3 day weekend is depressing enough, then add this: A grey, drizzly day. Walking past my brother, fast asleep in his bed, obviously not g...
Nice - 26.04.14 in Your Face
It's always nice to have peace and quiet, and privacy, when I am house sitting for my sister. I can take a dump in peace, I can cook for myself, I can nap and watch television and sit on a couch...
Unknown 25.04.14 in Your Face
Got an email from M at 5:15am his time. Don't know what to think about that. M will never, ever, ever get himself out of bed at that time, unless he's ill or getting up for work. He also hasn'...
Happy Oyster - 20.04.14 in Your Face
Went to Graham's house last night to hang out with Heslop. It was nice. It was just the three of us, and we ordered complicated pizzas, made stupid jokes, and watched Hot Tub Time Machine. I...
And Like That ... 18.04.14 in Your Face
Just after complaining about not hearing from M in weeks, an email appears. He was responding to an email I had sent a week or so earlier, not the argumentative email, but a regular chit-chat em...
On Edge - 17.04.14 in Your Face
Still feeling insanely furious about stupid things. Enraged in traffic, although I don't really show it, other than racing past people like an asshole once they finally get out of my way. Hatin...
Hmm - 10.04.14 in Your Face
I'm reading everyone's entries, just don't have anything encouraging to say in the comment box, so I do apologise for that. I was just starting to have that feeling of things coming together, f...
FML - 07.04.14 in Your Face
I feel like I'm getting hammered by migraines lately. I've had three whoppers in 2 weeks. Right now I am working through the aftermath of one, where it's like a hangover. Every movement hurts m...
I'm still alive, I guess. Very unhappy today, as I am most Sundays. Nothing doing here. I have 2 months left in my job. My weight is out of control. I go to the gym a decent amount, but I am...
Buy a Ventriloquist Dummy in Bucket List
Not for use, although I do want it to be functional. More of a kitschy, decorative item. Ideally, it would look like David Bowie.
“Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It’s for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It’s for those knowing a go...
X - 04.03.14 in Your Face
Still plodding along. Telling myself that all I have to do is keep getting up and going to work each day. Sounds easy, right? It's not. It's really not. I feel really useless, and like I alw...
Arrogance - 03.02.14 in Your Face
Watching old episodes of The Office and rolling my eyes at Jim and Pam being upset at 12 weeks apart (a TWO HOUR DRIVE apart). 12 weeks would be a fucking cake walk! I'm such an asshole. Such ...
Steps - 26.02.14 in Your Face
Since I last wrote (yesterday), I have taken care of two small tasks. I feel better for it. I don't want to jinx it, but I think M is back. We had a small conversation via email today, the mos...
Stop - 25.02.14 in Your Face
I'm finding it really hard to complete the smallest of tasks. To do one little thing each day to get my life in order is just BEYOND ME. I'm a disgrace. I don't know how to fix it. It's all t...
