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There have been a lot of cars stolen from my suburb lately. Last night they tried to steal my neighbour's car, and while they were trying to make a hasty getaway they crashed into my car. Fucki...

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A lot of things are bad right now and the one person I need support from doesn't give a rat's ass.

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Haven't had a response from M to my email. Not sure if I will - he pretty much said what he felt, but then he has a temper and may not be able to help himself from responding to my email. I fe...

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So now we're fighting via email, which is the dumbest thing ever. I am currently waiting for him to respond to a couple of questions but I am not holding my breath. My biggest beef is that, as ...

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The new me told my boss that she feels weird asking me questions because she feels like a burden. I admit that I can be short with her, but that's because as long as I am there, she exercises ze...

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I'm so dissatisfied. I want more than this limbo life. Sat my last exam for the trimester today. I need to contact my university about the next session - whether I need to start and finish in ...

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I feel a little less cranky at M today. I just can't waste the energy. And I don't want to be cranky with him. What's the purpose? We just need to get through this. I'm so tired this week. ...

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Plenty of mini-meltdowns today. Mostly because I'm still coming off cigarettes. Had an exam this afternoon. Felt like I did okay in part 1, did pretty well in part 2. Got home early because ...

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Not such a great day today. I lost sight and allowed myself to feel sad and depressed at having nowhere to be and no purpose other than to go to work and earn the money. I didn't smoke any ciga...

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This photo diary is breaking my heart tonight. http://imgur.com/gallery/Po7i1

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So I sent M and email today, and at the end put a note that I was cranky with him for pulling a bullshit disappearing act and how I would have assumed he was dead but for the fact that he was col...

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I vomited all day yesterday. I couldn't even drink water or disolvable asprin without it being ejected. It made me think more about the possibility of having had a drink spiked, but I guess the...

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Learn how to correctly wear a scarf, and incorporate one into my wardrobe. (I know this isn't exactly an exciting topic for a bucket list, but we can't all be skydiving and trekking through Nepa...

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I need to type up my handwritten journal entries. I normally do that on the weekend, but I never got around to it. Don't ask me why not, it's not like I had anything to do this weekend. Have h...

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Posted this on Facebook earlier today, pretty much sums up where I'm at: Ashleigh Funkelstein 6 hours ago Hello Facebook friends! I acted deplorably last night and I am feeling very embarrass...

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2 months, you son of a bitch. 2 months I've been sitting here and we're no closer than we were on the day you left. I am absolutely furious. It's fucking October.

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I wonder if this is how M felt for over 3 years: completely reliant on the actions of someone else, having no control over your own future. Pretty good day at work today. Busy. I was useful. ...

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So this is my first attempt at posting a picture in here. Please let me know if it's a complete failure. This is a group photo from the retirement party on Friday night. My boss is the lit...

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Still a bit nutty. That stuffed dog I ordered arrived and I was a bit excited at bed time to cuddle up with him (crazy). Then I worried that my ever loyal stuffed moose might have been upset, s...

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Feeling a bit more positive about the finances this week after an insurance refund of $60 from Westpac. Won't last, though. It's the end of the month and M will likely pump me for a little bit ...

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Still quite depressed. I can't stand this! So many times I have regretted packing M and Ernie off to America, but it would only have been delaying this. There's no other way for me to get my g...

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I ended up getting up and going for a run. Admittedly, I didn’t get up early, just at my usual 5:45am. I grumbled my way into my shorts and running shoes, packed my work gear, make up etc into ...

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Today I went to the lake with my friends for a few hours. It was nice, but I was glad to come back to my room and hide from the world. I didn't go for a jog tonight. Instead I felt teary and s...

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I feel like I'm going crazy. This week passed so quickly, but all it did was remind me that I'm still stuck here. 7 weeks today, which isn't that long, it just feels like it. I haven't heard f...

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Another Sunday. My 7th without M here. As usual, I am feeling depressed. Even if he gets a job tomorrow, I won't be leaving here until the end of October - at the very earliest. Fucking sucks...

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