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I had a slight scare with my grandmother yesterday. I wasn’t able to get a hold of her. I told her that I would call before I left to take her shopping and because of her stroke, it was hard not ...

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Some guy was giving me the creeps at the gym this morning. I was using the cable machine and he was just off in the corner starring at me. Maybe he’s zoned out and doesn’t realize. I figured. I g...

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Lenstar brought up something that happened in my city on Christmas day that I wasn’t following and it has been haunting me ever since. A woman was arrested at a hotel for wielding a knife. A drun...

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You don’t need a pronoun to tell you who you are. I was half dreaming when that thought came to me. I’m just waking up from my nap. I can make that even deeper if I had the energy. Bottom line, ...

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Current Books: Dispelling Weitiko Breaking the Curse of Evil by Paul Levy. The Light of Egypt The Science of The Soul and The Stars by Thomas H. Burgoyne. The Hearthbook by Divine Being Being Div...

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I feel dirty. Absolutely filthy. I called in sick today so that I can study for my exam this evening. I’ll get over it. I just hate being dishonest. I am still on the fence about taking a second ...

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Well split my d!€# and call me Caitlyn I was in such a good mood today, I didn’t even think that was possible. Why is this happening? How can I do this again? Why can’t I just feel like this all...

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I offered to take my grandmother to her church today but she wanted nothing to do with it. They have a new pastor and she just isn’t interested. She is doing fine. I called my mother yesterday to...

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I didn’t want to put the thought out into the universe that it felt like a bad omen when the picture fell off of my wall but something bad happened anyway. My grandmother had a stroke. She’s fine...

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My nerves are shot. My anxiety is hit or miss, I am noticing. At least it is just triggered by normal circumstances, like a test. It barely took me ten minutes to write the test today. This unit ...

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I don’t think I’ve experienced burnout like this before. I am no longer just tired of being tired. I am tired of being tired of being tired. I did not sleep well the last couple of nights. I keep...

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I don’t think I’ve experienced burnout like this before. I am no longer just tired of being tired. I am tired of being tired of being tired. I did not sleep well the last couple of nights. I keep...

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I am in a weird headspace. I feel lost but on track. I could be going the wrong way on this oneway track for all I know. I was consciously trying to create new habits but I relapsed a bit. Nothin...

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Frank made an appearance at work the other day. He is a customer who is there almost every day. I noticed his absence over the holidays. He has a very strong presence when he is in the store. He ...

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I have the metacognitive skills to recognize when my mindset is shifting to the one I am trying to restructure. I know that I can be weak when it comes to my vices but I’ve let go of more vices t...

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I have been restructuring my priorities this week. I have been letting go of habits that no longer serve. No more porn, no more doom scrolling, no more reporting every thought to Prosebox, etc. S...

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One of my responses to stress is to shrink my surroundings. It looks exactly how one would picture it—hiding under a blanket. In my case, I lock myself into mindless routines. I let my conscious ...

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Is Mercury in the microwave again? I know that the answer is yes. Astrology or not, things have been a little menacing all month. Today, I had a jug of cleaning chemicals spill onto my face at ...

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I’ve been bummed out all day, thus far. I made the mistake of watching The Sound of Freedom last night. I can’t unsee it.

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I feel a little guilty about calling in sick today. Everybody has done it. I wasn’t able to book it off so I used a sick day. I was up really late so I slept in today. All the way to 8:30. I had...

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I had myself a Merry Little Christmas. It was a depressing day. A depressing weekend, really. I wasn’t depressed, I just did fuck all. Nothing to do, no people to see. It’s a dream come true but ...

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I don’t know why I am laughing so hard at this. I got ChatGPT to help me get started on my entry about discernment. Me I need to get started on a blog entry called The Dumb Ages. It’s about soci...

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I feel guilty that I don’t feel guilty about wasting all of my time this weekend. Perhaps resting is not a complete waste. I just finished wrapping the Christmas gifts. I seem to think that I am...

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The week went by pretty fast. Yesterday, however, was long and full of terrors. It’s one of the shortest days of the year, technically. Class is out for winter break. I have a long weekend. I jus...

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