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I don’t feel nervous about the interview today. Not yet anyway. That will likely change the moment I pull up to the building. Worry and excited are the same physical experience so all I have to d...

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I have a job interview on Friday at an art supply store. I’m pretty confident about it. I’m 99.99% sure that I will land it with my interview skills. Unless that is something that is done online ...

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I feel sad today. I don’t have any context for it. I feel like I should overthink it so I can innerstand but I really don’t want to. We celebrated my mother’s 52nd birthday this weekend. Miranda...

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I was paying attention to my thoughts this morning before I got out of bed. They were pretty healthy I must say. Did I level up and become a person with healthy positive thoughts and healthy posi...

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Last weekend my mother invited me over for a visit and the script I gave her was that she wanted to talk about herself. I was wrong it was an intervention. My life sucks and my situation is sad a...

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You can’t think your way into acting differently but you can act your way into thinking differently. I was appropriately called out the other day. I took no offence because I need insight and gui...

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I laid in bed until around 12:30 today. I am tired of waking up tired. I know that this is the meds. While I was laying there I was thinking about all of the things I am not doing because of my a...

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I went to Bev’s yesterday to watch the Fifth Element. She’s never seen it and it’s not that the movie is good or anything but like, come on mam! I was a Stan of Tricky and he’s in it so I loved t...

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Well done you. You became an addict. You found a way out and a way to deal with your feelings. Russel Brand does feel that we need to applaud ourselves for trying to find ways to cope. We are all...

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Step 1: Are you fucked? This time last year I was telling my therapist that I was the best I had ever been but I was still unhappy and lost. I was powerless to my anxiety. I did not know how to b...

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I woke up in a decent mood today. I’m not sure how that happened after my nightmare of a dream last night. I’ve been waiting for the vivid dreams to start happening from the medication and it fin...

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I woke up feeling gross. I have been feeling some type of way after my previous entry. I wrote that a few days ago and it apparently didn’t even publish. It’s out there now. I was actually gross ...

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Am I ready to change? Like, am I actually ready to change? On some level, I don’t think I am. I don’t think I have actually opened myself up to change. I’m not ready to let go of behaviours &...

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I don’t know what it is about early mornings that feel so delicate. Nobody else is up yet, maybe that’s it? Leanne made reservations for us at Stella’s and I am trying to not feel nervous but I c...

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I just finished watching Bombshell. I have been waiting for months for this. A few months after I was fired from my job I downloaded Gretchen Carlson’s audiobook Be Fierce from Audile. I learned ...

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You’re not bored, lazy or unmotivated you’re afraid. I am so glad that I came across this video. I overslept today and I am probably going to beat myself up over it because I have to admit to my...

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I woke up feeling a lot better than I did yesterday. So far anyway. It was clear that I am coming down with something shortly after I wrote my last entry. I’m not going crazy. Although, I just go...

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I can’t get my energy up. I can barely peel myself off the couch. My head feels like it is stoned all of the time. It doesn’t hurt, it feels good, to be honest, but it’s a bit disturbing because ...

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34 times around the sun. I don’t feel like today is any special but it’s my Birthday. I’ll get a couple of texts and that’s probably it. It’s all good. I am a little disturbed about yesterday. I ...

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My first thought this morning was about how I am not living my life out loud. These dense energies that I am going through are getting worse… but I have faith that it is because I am learning how...

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Just before I decided to get out of bed I rolled over to see what the time was on my alarm clock. 11:11. I took that as a good sign. It’s New Year’s eve and I usually like to reflect but I don’t ...

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I had the house to myself yesterday evening. It was just what the doctor ordered. Basically I just played Skyrim without having to wear clothes around the house. I married Onmund and we live toge...

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I woke up feeling good again. Maybe it is the meds? I also woke up at noon which is seven hours away from the time that I want to be getting up. I want to join the 5am club. It’s my new gaming ad...

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My cat woke me up this morning by falling on my face. I don’t know what he was trying to do with his life or how he managed to free fall on my face but it happened. He’s chunky yet funky and it h...

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Over the span of eight hours, I drank an entire bottle of wine. Oops! I was up until four in the morning playing Skyrim and I didn’t even sleep in today. I should feel like shit but I don’t. What...

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