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My mind is restless again. This time is different. Everything is backwards. I don’t see the world with the same optics as I once did when I had a group identity. My inner social justice warrior i...

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Anyone else getting tired of not waking up on a tropical beach? I feel more alive today after my mini-breakdown yesterday though. Bev ended things with her fuckboy to start a relationship with a ...

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I think I’ve shut myself down. I’ve taken everything in stride that has been going on during these strange times because I accepted that I don’t have control. A therapist that I follow on Youtube...

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I think I experienced some psychosis this morning. I woke up to hearing somebody shout my name. It was loud enough for me to almost respond. I went upstairs only to find that everybody was sleepi...

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Matt got home last night. He gave up a $2500 incentive to stay in Ontario and finish the job but it’s been a month since he had seen his family and so he just wanted to come home. Now we all have...

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By some freak miracle, a second GST check deposited into my bank account this morning. I was worried about how I was going to tie myself over until my tax refund. Apparently, some individuals rec...

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I believe this is my third entry today? My gut health is not happy. I need to eat something that doesn’t come out of a can or a package! I want a whole food cooked meal desperately! I am ready to...

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I do about 2-3 reps of all of these on Wednesdays. I don’t know why I’m sharing. I’m leaving out the kegel exercises because the intros to those on YouTube make me blush lol. I follow these with ...

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Are you an Essential worker? I’m an internet hooker on OnlyFans. Not! I’m not an essential anything. How many drinks have you had since the quarantine began? None. If you have kids, are they driv...

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My brother in law is returning home in a day or two. The government in Ontario has made some decisions that are forcing a lockdown situation so he has to come home. When he does return we will al...

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If anybody is interested https://ww2.onecommune.com/ is offering a free 14-day trial on their classes. The Russel Brand one on Recovery changed me forever. I’ll probably browse around for more si...

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I did not sleep well last night. My mind was just racing and I couldn’t make it stop. I woke up several times just to overthink some more. I learned yesterday how COVID-19 is not the flu and it d...

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I’m starting to develop cabin fever. I miss going out. So I received an e-mail from the grocery store that I go to that explained that they now have an outbreak of COVID-19 among their employees....

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South Korea is using metadata and credit card info to trace where COVID-19 patients have been to help their efforts in this battle against this plague we created. Of course, we have annoying priv...

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Plot twist. I’m out here trying to find work and then my roommates express to me that they don’t want me to work right now with this threat of COVID-19. They have kids! Valid point! But like, how...

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This morning before I got out of bed I randomly remembered how my nervous breakdowns felt. How my body felt when I experienced myself spiralling out of control. Then I started to experience that ...

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This chaos comes with gifts. I’m looking at this as one giant awakening. We have an opportunity to stop and look at our ways of life. People say that they want things to go back to normal? Normal...

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Keeping Things Whole In a field I am the absence of field. This is always the case. Wherever I am I am what is missing. When I walk I part the air and always the air moves in to fill the spaces w...

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Someone tried breaking into our garage last night. My sister apparently tried waking me up but failed miserably. The garage is crazy old and falling apart and they didn’t find anything worth taki...

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I have an infection in my mouth from when I bit my tongue a few days ago. My throat burns, my nasal cavities feel like they just inhaled a strong astringent (or cocaine not that I would know), my...

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My nerves were shot this morning. I struggled with my depression all weekend which I should have seen coming as this happens after I experience high anxiety. What triggered that spike in anxiety ...

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I’m really struggling with my depression today. It started yesterday actually and I can’t seem to shake it. I’m not thinking anything but I’m just feeling everything instead. If that makes sense?...

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I finally heard from Hetal. She’s been stuck in India. She went to visit her husband and then the Coronapocalypse happened and now she’s stuck there. She’s in good health. Her mental state is not...

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I went to collect my check yesterday and a few people started to cry because they missed me so much. It was weird. I don’t feel too attached to that place. Apparently everybody keeps talking abou...

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I didn’t end up atomplishing anything yesterday. I was just so tired that I even passed out for a huge chunk of the day. That was probably my third nap since I went vegan. I miss naps so much. Ev...

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