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I’m riding an anxiety attack right now. I’m feeling overwhelmed with a desperate need to shrink my surroundings. To push everyone and everything away. I’m aware of my narcissistic traits and ways...

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I used to think that my empathy was a curse but I see now that it comes with gifts. However, it also comes with a shadow. The main curse is covert narcissists being drawn to me. I was weak but I ...

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I think that I will have to skip the march portion of the protest. I’ll aim to meet at the legislative building instead. The whole leave car and bus back situation was becoming dreadful. We’re st...

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I am a little flustered. We are all aware that there are algorithms in place that are weighted in various directions right? That’s not tinfoil hat territory, you can test it out yourself. I parti...

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If there was ever one thing I could wish on someone I hate it would be pathological narcissism. They are so deeply codependent and they know it. They have a love/hate relationship with everything...

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I poured myself some liquid courage and I started to create my action plan. I do want to keep this to myself for as long as possible, thank god my reception sucked because I already tried calling...

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You know that crazy guy on the street corner who shouts about how the end is nigh? I feel like I am him. I feel like I am not being heard and it’s driving me crazy as I am trying to get people to...

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I broke it to Toni yesterday that I am leaving Winnipeg. She took it well. I mentally feel like I am in an in-between. I am aiming to have all my ducks in a row by Monday. I still have to tell my...

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I woke up to an epic battle between my cats. I wanted to get up early anyway. Especially after the dreams that I had. In the first dream, I got to relive losing my job of 13 years but this time o...

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Alright! I have some planning to do and I need to do it quickly while funds last. I’ve never made a shift of residence outside of my city before let alone to a different province. Busses are not ...

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I’m feeling a little vulnerable right now. I already tried to write this entry once and I was interrupted by my tears. There is no use lying to myself about it. I don’t have time to pretend that ...

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My ambitions, the way I see the world, is changed forever. I have new optics, a new lens, a new fundamental belief that I am developing which is shaping the way I will see the world forever. My s...

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I figured out what my angst is. I feel like I’m 14 and just mad at the world because I have outgrown people telling me what to say, what to think, what to feel and what to do with my life. I don’...

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I don’t know why it hits differently that my own mother is trying to get me to be silent. After decades of trying to be the quietest voice in the room… I know that she doesn’t like my politics, n...

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I was stuck in a mood swing for the last three days. Today I suspect it will continue. This angst is probably not strictly withdrawal from my meds. However, my anxiety is making a comeback. Obses...

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Just as predicted Jenson rejected this data about black on black crime. He challenged his friendslist to change his mind about black on black crime being a myth so I sent him: This Link Right Her...

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Hate Cake Recipe: 5 cups of any facts 3 tsp of opinions Moral ultimatum to taste. Personally, I go for the you’re evil if you don’t agree with me. Combine all ingredients. Place in the public, b...

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To follow up on my previous entry, Here Is A Link to a study that shows how people who signal victimhood and virtue are displaying Dark Triad Traits. Long story short, some people suck at life a...

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It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society. - Jiddu Krishnamurti I was a little unhinged yesterday. I lashed out all over my socials. Another man was shot resist...

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I managed to cry a little bit today. I’m not the emotional incontinent guy that I used to be but I was thinking about how when these BLM riots end there will be no jobs for those communities to g...

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I spent the day with Brucey yesterday. We went to a few different towns to walk along the beaches during this heatwave. Those towns were so much bigger to me when I was a child. It was spontaneou...

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I am baffled by how much doesn’t exist in the real world. How much in my life isn’t real. I don’t mean that the world is featureless and blank. It’s a system of concepts in which we describe thin...

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Does overthinking burn calories? My thoughts exhaust me. They wear me down. I count my blessings that my thoughts are not noxious. I am not weighed down by depressive thoughts nor am I frantic wi...

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First world problems are giving me mood poisoning today. My PC google browser is identifying as a mobile device whenever I try to go on YouTube. My PC speakers are crackling and my headphones sto...

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I am 34, I’m unemployed and I live in my sister’s basement and I’m living off of CERB. Some people call this rock bottom, some call it room for opportunity and I call it finally being boyfriend m...

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