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Nerves of Steel in Current Events
They’re just thoughts. They’re just thoughts. They’re just thoughts. It is getting harder to remind myself. Progress isn’t linear. There are always setbacks. Our HR explained this during our ori...
Heavy Heart To Carry in Current Events
Today was even longer than yesterday. I have a lot that I need to read. Every other job I’ve had trained with online modules. I’m not good at reading so I am plowing through it at a glacial pace...
First Day Is Over With in Current Events
My first day was a long one. It was just a lot of information to take in. I had a group orientation that lasted five hours. Then IT helped set me up with my laptop. My desk is full of stationery...
Judgement in Current Events
One day, I’m going to snap. I’m going to drag my roommate into the kitchen by the ear to show her what a kitchen looks like after I’ve been in there all day. This is demure, this is mindful. Se...
Heavy Dirty Soul in Current Events
I haven’t been able to connect to anything that I am passionate about. This is why I decided to sign up for a master class about the metaphysical teachings from the Bible. A Bible study group, i...
Working My Nerve in Current Events
If my heart could beat it would break my chest. The physical symptoms of anxiety have been made manifest. There is a tightness in my chest. Physical pain is easy. I am lucky that this anxiety ha...
Tossing And Tortured 'Till Dawn in Current Events
Tomorrow is the big day. I start my new job. Last night I dreamt about it. I did not sleep well. I have not been sleeping well. I’m not entertaining any negative thoughts. I am in my Pisces era,...
Wellness Check in Current Events
You’ll never guess what I’m going to complain about. My inability to take action. I have nothing pressing to do. I should rejoice! Instead, I feel guilt and shame because I have ADHD paralysis...
Heartbreaker in Current Events
It was the face crack of the century, at work. When everybody learned that I was leaving. They really do love me there. My supervisor is looking forward to being rid of me. Or so I think. At yes...
5Gs: Good God Get A Grip Girl in Current Events
I am kidding myself. I am not in control. My ADHD is. I am going to give myself some grace but it is still frustrating when I can’t will myself to do something that is seamlessly simple to a neu...
On The Right Track in Current Events
I woke up beside myself. I’m excited about all the opportunities that open up with this new job. It’s a lot of money to me. Even if it was just minimum wage, it is full-time. I have not had that...
Sorted in Current Events
Today I got the call. They officially hired me. It is full-time and I start on Monday. They are emailing me my offer letter. I just need to send them the receipts from the background checks. I w...
Glacial Pace in Current Events
They take a minute. Alex told me multiple times while explaining how the hiring process moves at a glacial pace. They asked me for more references yesterday and today I delivered. Coincidentally...
Hat In The Race in Current Events
HR finally got back to me. I’m still confused about their hiring process but at least I know they are still interested. They want me to provide more references. Done! I know who to ask. I’ll hav...
The Truth Isn't Bitter, It Is Unsweetened in Current Events
I had one of the worst sleeps of my life. My mind interpreted every bump in the night as a life-threatening threat. My crackwhore neighbor does not sleep. Every noise she made woke me up and kep...
Wellness Update in Current Events
My mood disorders are still missing in action. My triggers are not. My situations are not. Today I have to admit to myself that my habits are not. I still do anxiety and depressed things. Hung...
Blank Slate in Current Events
My dream woke me up. Just in time because it was awful. In the scene, the theme was public nudity. I couldn’t bring myself to do it, just like in real life. I arranged to change in a separate ro...
Got To Act My Wage in Current Events
About $120 later I finally submitted my request forms for a Criminal Record check, an Adult/Child Abuse Registry Check, and a Driver Abstract. This better be worth it. I’m not letting this sink ...
The More You Know in Current Events
I developed heightened sensitivities to a lot of the things that I’ve quit over the years. I quit dairy and now it burns ulcers in my mouth if anything I eat comes into contact with it. I quit w...
Untwisted in Current Events
Tongue-tied, brain-tied, heart-tied, maybe even tubes-tied. That’s the vibe. Sigh of relief is what I felt yesterday. There was no real sigh but I felt a huge shift—a calmness set throughout my ...
Onboarded in Current Events
It’s not on paper but I am hired. I thought I was having an interview with the programs coordinator but it was an orientation. Just the two of us. It was not communicated to me that it was an ori...
Follow-up in Current Events
I got a follow-up email from that non-profit. The HR thinks I would be a better fit for a different program. I am going to meet with that coordinator tomorrow. I can’t find the program on their w...
So Close Yet So Far in Current Events
I got to lead a reset today. It fell in my lap but I know I did great. This is exactly what I like to do. I was given Connie and Helen. This is a heavy week for my team and my supervisor couldn’t...
Stress Test in Current Events
My anxiety wants fuel. This week will be a stress test. I can tell. Though I can remind myself that they’re just thoughts, the situations are still real. I’m not gaslighting myself with toxic po...
Relax Max in Current Events
I need to choose peace over anger. That is the exercise I’m supposed to work on. My roommate makes this challenging. As we know. I felt ready to throw hands today. Relax, take it easy. This is he...
