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Mom! / Biodynamic Urban Farmer / Naturopathic Doctor / Anthroposophist / Hack Philosopher / Mystic / Avid Reader / Writer Extraordinaire / In Pursuit of Moral, Physical, and Intellectual Excellence.
If you do not possess a deep capacity for Anger, your Compassion or so-called Gentleness means nothing to me.
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A Changeling in Dreams
I was a changeling. I knew it intrinsically, and I knew little else. I knew that I was not supposed to tell or to show anyone. It was who I was, but they hated it. They wanted me dead for it. ...
I had a Purpose Reading in Journal
today. And whoa, man. I learned a lot. I need to listen to the recording because I retained probably less than a third of it. Something stuck out to me, though. Well, a few something’s, but on...
Last night I dreamed of a very particular and peculiar sort of relationship. I’m not sure if I made it up. I’ve never read about this dynamic in books or seen it played out in a movie. Probably ...
My relationship in Journal
To J is changing. I am noticing a distinct lack of anger, bitterness, resentment, contempt, etc. I have an idea that I was so set on making it work that I would never allow resentment to build u...
Ring around the Rosy in Journal
I feel an urge to show my children self love, confidence, a healthy reciprocity between parents. I feel desperate, full of remorse, and distraught that I cannot do that RIGHT NOW. I have such ...
Confirmation bias in Journal
And other doubts About my own ability to navigate reality plague my thoughts. “How would I know? Is there evidence for that? Are there any counter examples?” Runs like a stuck record through ...
never been one to really internalize my beauty or goodness. And that’s not, so far, a huge tragedy. It has caused me to develop deep thought, to utilize my not-insignifiant intelligence, and to...
It's amazing in Journal
The agony of a decision being made, And the complete bliss of having made the decision. Christ as my guide and truth as my goal I sail forth into the world once again
Do you find it in Journal
Difficult To treat those who treat you the best, the best? Or, do you treat those who harm you the most, the best? Do you strive for true reciprocity, or do you appease those who threaten yo...
I feel as if in Journal
I’m in one of my own novels How strange to have been so prophetic. I live my daily life almost perfectly oblivious to the goings on of the insane world- and I look around once in a while to c...
They wouldn't do it in Journal
If you didn’t want to see it. Don’t lie. You’re addicted to watching the news. Watching the world crash and burn. Your eyes fuel it. Your attention keeps it going. Why not see what your atten...
Life is really in Journal
REALLY good I feel like my mind has expanded tenfold We’re in a perfect position to buy a forever piece of property DHs family convinced him that they suck. I barely had to do anything excep...
This might be my in Journal
New favorite color [url=https://postimg.cc/zLzwjLqk][/url] [url=https://postimg.cc/v4LLf7wB][/url] [url=https://postimg.cc/F7Sxs5P0][/url] At least in the top 5 Definitely my favorite of wh...
Orientation, Free Will, and Perception in Journal
This morning, I performed an at once fascinating, amazing, and awe-inspiring act. I was dreamily reviewing options open to me at the moment; why should, or would I choose one option over anot...
Being attractive in Journal
Isn’t actually all that great. People lie to you more. People are less likely to listen to you. And while, yes, pretty privilege is a thing, it’s also a thing that people are aware of pretty ...
Pay me now in Journal
Or pay me later It really interesting, I’m finding that I am forgetting a lot of things about my childhood. Not forgetting, as in I don’t know that they happened, but as in, it never comes to ...
Fresh Buns in Journal
New litters are always exciting! [url=https://postimg.cc/8f8Xfxby][/url] I’ve been shelving the boxes inside bc of the cold- they’d actually probably do okay outside now that it’s high 20’s, b...
The moment in Journal
That I realized I was so strongly empathic (empathetic) that I mistook (necessarily) my mom’s experiences for my own completely changed my life. It was really not that long ago. 4 years? But it...
Are we clear? in Journal
Seeing all of hubs family over on the other side the court room wasn’t just impactful, it was concrete clarity; “we reject you and your interests. We have zero respect for what you think is best...
I don’t have any kind of plan. I don’t think I ever decided that I had an end goal - either for my life or for my family. What I have is more of a serious contemplation of each choice that is ...
FIL got up on the stand and called me evil and vile. And the judge obviously granted my PPO order. Just amazing how much an idiot and an asshole this man is. Just to say, I never once called ...
Keep it simple. Keep it concise. Prove what needs to be proven, and nothing else. Mr N, are you happy and satisfied with your current relationship to my children? The children shared by my husb...
The PPO hearing is tomorrow. I feel very shaky. Anxious. Angry I am reminded of the feeling surrounding my brother and my own father. The terror of standing up to the man. As a small child, I d...
I am thoroughly in Journal
enjoying that I just now got the hearing notice in the mail. So FIL probably would have gotten it today, or maybe will get it tomorrow. Which leaves him exactly 2 non-weekend days to prepare or...
Might as well detail the hellish ordeal that it is to file for a PPO. The county clerk is a complete joke. Spent a solid 2 hours going back and forth to get THEIR paperwork filed, which was EXA...
