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I'm just me. I suck at relationships. I suck at picking people. I'm good with animals.
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Not Sure... in 2018
I’m just feeling a little down tonight. Not really sure why. Sometimes I think I might be bipolar. Because sometimes I’m just really happy and energetic and other times I dwell on everything neg...
Weekend... in 2018
So me and my bff and her hubby went to Memphis for the weekend. My weekend started off horribly, but not because of them. On Friday night I ran some errands… Costco and TSC. I looked up some hot...
I started today… 1 more chance. I finally said fuck it yesterday after the negative pregnancy test and went to this guy’s apartment. I was on that side of town and he’s decent but not really for ...
Just nope... in 2018
So I talked to K and I think we got it worked out. However, I thought if we went to a different location I might get to see a friend and maybe at least get some good cuddles out of it. Then I tex...
Ok, so I recognize that maybe I’m being a bitch here, but I want opinions. So like a week or 2 ago my bff K started talking to me about making an Ikea trip. This isn’t the easiest thing for us b...
Ok for starters… I think I forgot to mention something. Around 2 weeks ago I accidentally got a new pet… I know what you’re thinking… how do you accidentally get a new pet? Well, it really wasn’t...
Lounging... in 2018
I stayed home today. I wasn’t feeling great anyways because of the ovulation shot and insemination, but then last night around midnight my electricity went out and one of my dogs freaked out abou...
I feel like crying. I feel like screaming. I feel like not existing. I’ve just been so lonely and nothing is really helping. My house is a disaster because I just don’t care. Even things I use...
I have no title. The tests were negative and a couple days later I started. It was a painful period at that. I’m back on fertility drugs and need to schedule round 2. F has just been distant and ...
I feel like I’m pregnant but I don’t want to get my hopes up. I was pretty sore and bleh for a while. My boobs didn’t start hurting until like Thursday and they’re still sore. My boobs aren’t ty...
I stayed home today bc I just felt bad. I woke up with a sore throat and my left ear hurting. On top of the everything else hurting I said fuck it going back to bed. Tomorrow I have to go to the...
My sister is a fucking bitch. I told her all about my IUI process, but I very specifically told her to not share anything with either of our parents. I wasn’t ready to tell my parents about i...
Explain... in 2018
I really don’t get boys sometimes. For the past several days M has been being a complete dick. I’m not entirely sure why. I was kinda wondering if B had let it slip about F and I, but I don’t thi...
It’s done. Got the ultrasound and shot on Monday. That shot made me a bit of an emotional wreck. Then got inseminated on Tuesday. I have to wait 2 weeks to take a pregnancy test and find out. Kee...
I just don’t get guys.... or maybe I’m just that fucking needy? I dunno. I feel like I’m always initiating communication so I decided not to. So of course I didn’t hear from him at all yesterday ...
Love Language... in 2018
Physical touch is definitely my love language of choice. I tried to explain this to M last week and I think he understands a little better now. I like hugs. They make me feel better. And when I’m...
Not Good Enough... in 2018
This seems to be a running theme with me. And I really dislike it. My ex bf from over 2 years ago… he made me feel like that. Like drugs and alcohol were always way more important than me. That ...
Last night started off a bit rocky… at least for me. For starters I felt like a fat cow because period and bloated and just ugh. So I ended up wearing jeans and a tshirt instead of the dress I wa...
So F and I have been texting a bit. He texted me quite a bit on Sunday. I finally got to see him on Monday. I hugged on him a little bit and snuck a few quick kisses. I was glad to finally be abl...
Really People... in 2018
Yesterday I went to my friend’s kid’s birthday party. Her girls are my goddaughters and I love them to death. I’ve known their mom since we were 10 years old. We went to school together, played b...
Confused... in 2018
I’m just confused and stressed. I guess I got my hopes up. I didn’t mean to, but I guess I just thought if he was kissing me again that it might go somewhere? I know he’s going through a major ...
Not Your Average Day... in 2018
Yesterday was kinda just exhausting. First, apparently yesterday morning F went to the gym. When he got back, he found his mom dead. Now, he knew her cancer had spread and that it was probably i...
I Might Be A Bad Person But... in 2018
I couldn’t really let another person go through what I did. My ex that showed up like a week ago… he had left his fb signed in on my computer and I don’t really get on it much. There were several...
I kicked my ex bf out on Sunday bc he broke my no drinking rule. He has since been messaging me saying he wants to kill himself and professing his undying love. I told him to go to a hospital. Y...
What the Fucking Fuck??? in 2018
Today has been insane. Well, let’s start with the small stuff. Had a hip dr appointment. He looked at my finger and gave me a prescription for antibiotics. Good thing too because it started oozi...
