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I'm just me. I suck at relationships. I suck at picking people. I'm good with animals.
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Not Sure... in 2022
I’m having a hard time functioning honestly. My house is a wreck. It needs a deep clean and a ton of organizing. I can barely make myself get out of bed or off the couch on the weekends. We need...
Sunday my dad died. While his heart was slowing down I was trying not to pass out or throw up. I then laid in the floor of the ICU with an ice pack trying to make it all disappear. The world wi...
This past week I went to Savannah for a book con. Third year there. It was fun, but my bff was in a constant anxiety attack like the entire time we were there. It really sucked for her. I spent e...
I don’t usually remember my dreams. Occasionally, but I lose them fairly quickly. This morning I woke up from a very vivid dream. I was with M. For whatever reason he took me home with him in hi...
Haven’t written in a while. Rarely get notes anyways… seems like a lot of people have just stopped writing. Stress has gotten worse. My dog has completely lost his sight now. I got him a halo ha...
House Survey... in 2021
General What kind of house do you live in (condo, single-family, apartment, craftsman, ranch, etc.)? Single family, 2 story, 3 if you count the basement What kind of siding does it have? All woo...
Stressed... in 2021
It’s just always something lately. My dog had his blood sugar get too low and went blind for a few hours last week. He woke me up at 2 am freaking out because obviously he couldn’t see and theref...
New Year... in 2021
I’m just a bit stressed right now. A few months ago one of my dogs was diagnosed with diabetes. We have since monitored his blood sugar and give him insulin shots 2x a day. I took him to the vet ...
Just Ugh... in 2020
So I haven’t really written much lately. The world has just gone crazy. F… the guy I used to date at work… well his side chick, who I guess is now his main chick though I think he’s still paying...
So a kinda weird thing happened today. I used to write a lot about M way back when but not so much anymore. He’s still with his gf, they had a baby, he still seems mostly miserable with her but h...
I haven’t written in a bit. There’s not a terrible lot going on. Still cutting carbs, though I cheated with ice cream today. I still haven’t had soda. I made a pizza with zucchini crust. I made a...
So yesterday the bf and I had our tele-appointment with the fertility dr. Basically just going over stuff and next steps etc. He asked the bf a lot of personal questions about whether he had eve...
I took today off and stayed in bed til nearly 11. I was hurting a lot and having weird dreams. Some of it involved M from work. It was intimate but not sexual if that makes sense. And in part of ...
Conflicted... in 2020
I’m having some conflicted feelings lately. Don’t get me wrong… I love my bf and it’s not about him. I think I just haven’t really ever fully gotten over my previous bf. It’s hard to do that when...
Good Weekend... in 2020
It was a pretty good weekend. I got out of work early on Friday for whatever reason. Came home and my dad was here cutting the grass. It needed it terribly. Then I spent like the next 5-6 hours c...
I’m feeling really grouchy. It popped up on my newsfeed today. I knew it was coming… but still… tomorrow will be a year since I had to let my bestest puppy go. I miss her so much. I was looking a...
I’m officially old. On Tuesday I ordered a thumb brace on Amazon bc I think I have arthritis in my thumb and it’s been hurting a lot the last couple days. I’ve been on RA meds for a few months no...
The bf started his new job. He was hating it a little bit for the first 2 weeks but it’s gotten better. He’s currently working Monday through Friday 6-2 but that will most likely change after his...
Annoyed... in 2020
I am so freaking annoyed with everything. I guess I had fun at the convention. I enjoyed some food. I enjoyed getting books. I did not enjoy my bff annoying the absolute fuck out of me. I know s...
Kittens... in 2020
Well for starters, I was super worried and stressing that the momma cat (Trixie) was going to wait until I was out of town to have her kittens. Plus she’s such a tiny cat in the first place (prob...
As if today was not stressful and crazy enough.... I found out earlier that my ex that I work with apparently knocked up his side chick. I hate hearing about people being pregnant, but idiots li...
Work Stuff... in 2020
Ok, so I got a new boss.... for all of a week before he apparently up and said fuck it I retire. So now everything is super crazy no idea what is going to happen next. All I know is now I have to...
Work Stuff... in 2020
Ok, so I got a new boss.... for all of a week before he apparently up and said fuck it I retire. So now everything is super crazy no idea what is going to happen next. All I know is now I have to...
First of all… sorry to anyone that just got a million updates from me where I was moving entries into different folders because I realized all my entries were in the 2018 folder. I really just w...
First of all… sorry to anyone that just got a million updates from me where I was moving entries into different folders because I realized all my entries were in the 2018 folder. I really just w...
