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My cousin came down and we went to the amusement park around here. My family has been tons of times as its close to were I grew up. My cousin came down with her boyfriend whom is not of the sa...

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Its coming up to were I went to my first prenatal apt. It was July 15, 2015..... I wasn’t looking forward to it but decided if things were going to progress I should go. Life was getting a bit...

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As I was pregnant with him and knowing he didn’t have any genetic problems it still left the big what if of autism. Having my oldest be on the autism spectrum disorder has been a learning exper...

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I look at this beautiful little creature. I love him dearly. He is definitely my heart outside my body. I know, I have 2 other children. Maybe because I know he’s my last and am cherishing his l...

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He jumped off the crazy tree and hit every branch on the way down this year..... that pretty much somes it up right there. I can’t deal. He’s too unstable. Run away and hide from your problems. ...

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So we are back to him “running away” I use this term loosely as he’s around but he will come back…Grrrr. Fuck him. Maybe it occurred to me that at 52 yrs old he thinks he’s too old to be a fa...

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So l had a IUD put in and knowing me its didn’t go very well. My body I guess doesn’t do well will foreign objects in. I am having bad back pain like I had last summer when I was pregnant with...

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Been exhausted, back aches terrible. Think its that stupid gadget they put in me. I don’t handle things being put in me well. I’ve been exhausted the last few days too. Screw this. I contacte...

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I’m getting tired of this crap.....he’s going down the same path and I can’t take much more. As I played with the baby on the floor , he playing in his infant gym thing. I sighed and thought to ...

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I can’t take him....he’s adamant about not taking meds. I wouldn’t care that much BUT what he did to me…to my family at the beginning of this year was horrible. Yes I had a melt down today. I ...

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Seems like I’m constantly running around to get things done lately. I have to get this for that and so forth. This time of year. Oldest has a moving up ceremony on Thursday and we have a wedd...

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Another day another apt for the baby and more crap I have to put up with his father.. I’m really to my limit with that. The only reason right now I’m with him is the kids or otherwise I’m so ove...

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Its temporary and when he grows up he will not know. Till then its a cranky baby that hates his foot wear. Feeling terrible making him cry as I stretch his feet. Not being able to wear footies p...

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They push breastfeeding so much these days its almost expected that you will and that you aren’t giving your baby a fair chance in life if you don’t. Being a third time mother I’m not that uptigh...

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So this morning I took babycakes for his 4 month check up and shots. Babycakes is now 12lbs 6oz 23 1/4” long hc 16.6 . He’s a little babycakes for a 4 month old. Argued with my mom that he’s a 4...

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The insurance company and ........the father of the last 2 boys. He is a nightmare. He went off the hook this year and spent 3 weeks the first time and another week the second time in the psych...

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Grrrr ..... He’s got to go back to get a shot this week and the last time he went there it didn’t go so well. I guess they had a tape recorder and he was his nasty self. He’s afraid they will...

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If I had known about this diary place I would have chronicled my pregnancy. It was something else. It will take me a while to get over and for my mind to let it be. Sinc its my dairy and journa...

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Sometimes I don’t know where to start with this as my mind is trying to process everything and nothing at once so I end up with a mixed bag of everything. The obsession with the OB doctor contin...

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I worried about the things that were to go on today. I didn’t want to go to the interview first thing this morning as they are the ones I didn’t think would call me back and of course they did. ...

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Okay so PMS and not sleeping equals the demon spawn from hell rising in me. I ache all over, my head throbs and I’m not in a good state of mind. I’m still getting up with little one at least 2 t...

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as I said yesterday was my birthday. It also is the anniversary of my SO mother passing away. I think it makes 15 yrs now. He was miserable in the morning and was taking it out on me. It doe...

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Here I am 42 years old. My hair still has never been dyed and its still brown. There’s a gray hair now and then. I got most of my teeth LOL. Last year at this time having a baby was the last thi...

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As the months go by now Its easier to take a sigh of relief from what I was dealt with with that pregnancy. Just an ordinary 3 month old, one with clubbed feet none the less. He brings me much ...

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Personally I hate mother’s day. It’s been the biggest disappointment to me since becoming a mother. Its usually magnified because my birthday hovers around it just looming there for the 2nd bigg...

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