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This is escalation and it shouldn’t be happening. Perhaps we need to do this, get this out of our system and move on. Or maybe this will open up a floodgate. I’ve been craving kissing Him. To be ...

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1) RJ and I went to get drinks and snacks after work. We caught up and talked and got to the meat of the matter later on in our favorite setting: somewhere where live music is playing. At any rat...

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1) I wrote Him a detailed email and heart spilled on him. 2) I’ve been talking to RJ today. I apologized to her, but we’ve seemingly only scratched the surface. 3) “Friend” M. I wrote her a brief...

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On my way to church Christmas morning, I had a real moment with myself that started with my first love/lover at 14, Harry. Our relationship was mostly over the phone. We saw each other in person ...

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So…I am here, at 1:31 in the afternoon still in the bed. I had plans to be up early, cleaning house, washing clothes, but instead, I have on a tshirt, but nekkid underneath, listening to what sou...

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Not totally, but it’s there. He seems good. He seems happy in his life, so why are YOU here? But he keeps in touch. I stay away from his socials because I don’t want to really know. Give me the s...

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I’m in the midst of a Kirk Franklin fest on Spotify right now. I think I needed to become very acquainted with him today for some reason. He’s alright. 20 years ago, I would have been saying some...

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Yesterday was the 3rd anniversary of my sister passing away. It’s weird. For some reason it seems so much longer than 3 years. I was talking to my niece yesterday and told her that I feel like c...

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This dance we stay away from. Opening books, peeking at phrases from who we were. We smile. We talk on the subject of you and me. I back out of it clumsily, but you keep advancing. Step to only ...

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1) Him called me not long ago and said he wanted to hear my voice and wanted me to be sarcastic to him like only I do. I wasn’t in the mood to entertain him in that way. So, I did the next best t...

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I had a feeling that my check was going to be screwed up some kind of way. My check is short. My daughter is, once again, back at my house. All I ask is that she and the kids keep a low profile. ...

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It never fails. Once things get back on unsteady rails, the behavior resets and it’s back to square one. Still not done with being blind to patterns that undo you every time You just won’t learn,...

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All I have on it is prayer. I have to take it to God. I’m a limited being. My daughter and Bubby Jr. showed up at my door last night. She sat on my stairs and cried and cried. So I told her to ta...

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To get to the meat of the matter… I woke up 2 nights in a row with a pain. I can’t say it was in my chest, but I can’t rule it out. The first night wasn’t so bad. Last night, the pain lasted long...

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Today’s shenanigans consisted of my daughter dropping Bubby Jr with my son so he can take him to daycare. Daycare wouldn’t take him. He hasn’t been for a month. Of course they couldn’t take him. ...

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My daughter is…ugh… I got to her Facebook page. She, within a 24hr period posted a bunch of stuff she’s laughing about, talking stuff about, to posts about Bubby Jrs dad and they are…::makes gag...

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A picture of Bubby Jr. I haven’t seen him in so long…about a month it’s been. I started tearing up. He’s getting so big. Me and Bubby Sr. have said that we missed him. I don’t miss him enough to ...

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The story I was looking at was Bubby Jr’s dad. The story had been updated as of 3:30 something this afternoon. Out of respect for his mother, I will go to the service. Firefighters called the po...

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So after some Facebook digging, I found its true. My littlest grandson’s father has been killed. My daughter texted me last night when she found out, but offered no details when I asked what hap...

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For one moment, I had a glimpse of what you would look like Wrapped in me I come to my senses because you don’t exist Just a mist in my head of what I want “I want you, ‘cause you make my heart s...

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I’m sleepy because my insides decided to betray me. I have been up most of the night, just bottoming my life out. I took the same detox stuff I always take and it has had a bad effect on me this...

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Have you ever felt like there are things you will not stand for from anyone, but there is one person that makes you break every rule you have? You say you’re going to put your foot down and then ...

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Yesterday MORNING, I wrote the following on Facebook: “For The Good of the Colony”: When in the business of building,everyone has ideas. All of the ideas can be good ones, yet when it comes to pe...

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Shortly after my last entry, toxic aunt called me. ::smh:: She just spit a WHOLE lot of stuff to me and because I know she’s bitter and unhappy, I take it all with a grain of salt. She said she w...

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My father is a minister. He’s an overseer of a few churches, bishops. He has an organization. Every year, they have a conference. When you do things like this, it requires work. REAL. Work. Lots ...

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