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No More Words in meh...
After our final words, we have retreated to our neutral corners. I’ve been crying on and off, upset. Handling day workload, dealing with part time work on my lunch. She sent a text to tell me s...
I'm Starting To Hate It Here in meh...
Well, I always hate it here, but it’s been…I’ve been… For the most part, I’ve been fine. I’m in a tizzy right now because of others inconsideration once again. I swear it really doesn’t take much...
4-6:05 am: I may wake up between these times do absolutely nothing and still can’t make it out of the house on time. 6:50-7:09 am: This is the window to get out of the house to go to work and m...
(Side note- Since the start of 2022, this will be th 3rd time I’ve written him. The time before this was short and brief - and I ignore him mostly- but I had to be very clear. This was the respon...
Valentine’s Day can suck it. Only the person I want to disappear from their mind is the one to say Happy Valentine’s Day to me. Lol I’ve blocked the number he calls from. He still emails and trie...
Even in dreams in meh...
I came home from work today, intending to clean my bathroom after I cooked. Instead, I had a raging headache. So I filled out paperwork for my part time job, grabbed my phone charger, and went to...
I woke up this morning, you in my head Dreaming of a trip we’ve never been on Us lying on a bed And I told you, showed you my heart I shared my insecurity, about not being enough I think of how y...
Okay, So... in meh...
…I wrote him back after reading this latest letter. I almost had to because he is delusional about why he hadn’t heard from me. Being a second letter, I pretty much knew he’d be trying to get me ...
Sticking To My Guns in meh...
Every time I go to clean my downstairs, I run into those two huge boxes full his his crap. I’m certain his godmother doesnt want that at her house taking up space. His son’s mother really doesn’t...
Nothing Much in meh...
Good evening… I’m currently sitting at the bar of a restaurant I’ve been wanting to go to for a long time. I’ve not been out like this by myself in a long time, well, in months. Don’t know why I ...
I'm Wide Awake in meh...
It could be the coffee from 7a carrying me into past midnight. Then again, it could be that I briefly went to sleep and I woke up and now here I am. I’m bored with Facebook and IG videos. It’s th...
Sighs Heavily in meh...
Currently sitting in my car smoking trying to calm down thoughts that invade. Yet, here I am thoughting through my fingers. My current situation with this fool (he wrote me after getting my lett...
Will Retreat To My Hole After This in meh...
I am seriously going to start therapy. I have my faith and I don’t doubt in it’s power one bit, but I need to figure me out. I don’t recognize the person I claim to be anymore. I’ve been so condi...
I swear I get into so much stuff, wonder how I get into it and cry because I should have never gotten involved in the first place. 1) Relationship kept going for a while until Memorial Day weeken...
It Won't Go Away in meh...
I never thought I would be in an emotionally abusive relationship. I now realize how it can happen. He has mental problems and needs help. I’m going to really need therapy after it’s really over...
I Thought I Was Safe in meh...
The past few days have been a mess. I’m on the upside, in a way, but on a downside too Wednesday around 5:30a: I was asleep on the couch. I woke up. Putzed around in my phone for a second. Stood...
My Sister Would Have Been 55 Today in meh...
I miss her, but I know she’s got a functioning kidney and her heart is strong where she is now. My “relationship:=” is baffling. I want to get rid of him. He is determined he I am his forever and...
Never Have I Ever in meh...
Never have I ever loved someone like this. Not the love itself, the person. Flaws are plenty and I recognize that there are some things unmanageable, but somehow I’m here and I’m stuck. We argue ...
All Is Well in meh...
I’m pregnant with polyps and a possible fibroid. Colonoscopy revealed a couple of polyps that were removed. I have a hiatal hernia and inflammation in my stomach that is not cancerous but inflamm...
Everything I Said Prior in meh...
I. Take. Back.
Playing With Fire in meh...
He is hella flawed and has fucked up vision. I don’t know if it’s because I really want him, or…I don’t know. I keep asking God that if it’s not for me then to move him, but he stays around. He’...
Still In A Mood in meh...
I’m not as whiney as I was. I think I have flipped over into anger, but I’m still in a mood. I am a person who suffers in silence. Even if people come out of the wood work and say you can talk to...
Is That A Bad Thing? in meh...
Part of being a dreamer and idealizer is that you have dreams and ideas with no ambition to make anything happen or change I get motivated to do stuff when I think I can see what the course is g...
Skipping Over What I Won't Talk About in meh...
So, I’m pre-diabetc, says my doctor. I walk this line of trying to eat better, but end up not eating at all. Since taking the meds she prescribed, I just feel like I’m forced to eat something. I’...
Glutton For Punishment in meh...
I get myself into situations that I know better…yet, I get into them. Then always want God to bail me out. I’m hard headed
