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Dear Me, in Chapter 8 : Time to Heal
You wrote this yesterday, in the morning, and then at lunchtime you had a full ball panic attack at college, in front of people. The shame you felt, are still feeling will break before you come b...
Strands in Chapter 8 : Time to Heal
So… All the pieces of me that are out of reach remain inside, they’re just encased in the entrails of what happened, and I don’t seem to be able to free them. if anything the constraints are gett...
Could There Be Something? in Chapter 8 : Time to Heal
So… I need to write this without being deep and dramatic. I need to get this down pragmatically. I’m not going to go into any graphic, gory details but I need to be blunt. When you’re raped, peop...
Dear Me, in Chapter 8 : Time to Heal
Tomorrow something is going to happen to you that will change your life, what I want you to know about it is that whilst everything is going to change, including your perspective, it doesn’t not ...
I Quit Twice A Day in Chapter 8 : Time to Heal
How do you recover from trauma? The pain is there and so very real but I’m unable to pinpoint the injury, to locate the wound from where I feel like I’m bleeding so profusely. There’s nothing tha...
Half Of Me Is Missing in Chapter 8 : Time to Heal
So, Ma made a remark about Pidge and how she could drive you to drink and I stupidly told her that I’m back on the fags. You’d have thought I’d told her I’ve started chasing a fix with a shot of ...
I Get A Kick Out Of You in Chapter 8 : Time to Heal
So, OD emailed, and I retrieved my account IMMEDIATELY, I have nothing to lose as an OD+ Lifetime Member. It couldn’t have come at a better time to be honest. I’m in need of comfort, and OD feels...
If I Close My Eyes, Will My Fears Fall Out Of Sight? in Chapter 8 : Time to Heal
Transition tranˈzɪʃ(ə)n,trɑːnˈzɪʃ(ə)n,tranˈsɪʃ(ə)n,tranˈsɪʃ(ə)n/ noun noun: transition; plural noun: transitions The process or a period of changing from one state or condition to another. Fiftee...
Put Your Hands Up in Chapter 8 : Time to Heal
⚠️ Domestic Violence, Rape ⚠️ So… That wasn’t the last time it would happen. I probably would have stayed if it had only been the once. I would have somehow justified it to myself, but it wasn’t ...
We Both Know All The Truth I Could Tell in Chapter 8 : Time to Heal
⚠️ Rape/Sexual Assault ⚠️ So… I’m not going to regurgitate the relationship we had. You can find it, if you wish, within the chapter entitled “The Dick Mistake”. He shall henceforth be known as “...
Fuck Your Ribbons And Your Pearls in Chapter 8 : Time to Heal
heading text 2010 So… They’re right, the heat in Arizona is something else. Even in the AC controlled terminal building, I can feel the heat swirling about me. I’ve been travelling for 30 hours. ...
Caught In The Undertone in Chapter 8 : Time to Heal
⚠️ TW : Sexual Abuse ⚠️ So… Let’s begin at how I wound up back at Ma’s as I am currently living a nightmare. I am living my nightmare; the life I swore blind I would never return to, a town I swo...
I'm Building Castles In The Sky in Chapter 8 : Time to Heal
So…I’m back. I’ve missed you since you’ve been gone. A lot has happened. A lot has changed. I’ve spent 3 days working through my archive, editing, cleaning some entries up. I’ve republished the i...
There’s A Story At The Bottom Of This Bottle in Chapter 8 : Time to Heal
So… Turns out I really don’t give even the tiniest of fucks about Christmas. I’d forgotten what Christmas with Depression is like. It’s like normal Christmas but with precisely none of the fun. ...
Out of Body, Out of Mind. in Chapter 8 : Time to Heal
So… I worked the bar job for a couple of months, but I couldn’t make ends meet on half the hours and half the pay. My already fractured heart was starting to break. I had no other choice, livin...
Let The Sun Rain Down On Me... in Chapter 8 : Time to Heal
I am currently living a nightmare. I am living my nightmare; the life I swore blind I would never return to, a town I swore I would never return to, yet here I am. 21st April 2010. Lunchtime-ish...
The Cast So Far... in Chapter 8 : Time to Heal
So… I promised new introductions. I am still me. I am still a more lesbian-y kind of a bisexual, but we’ll get in to that at a later date. I have two children; Bub (eldest) & Pidge (younge...
A New Beginning. in Chapter 8 : Time to Heal
So… It’s been a while. A lot has happened. I feel like I need to heal. My mental health has been through the floor lately. A lot has happened these past ten years, and I really haven’t dealt w...
Then We Go To The Forest... in Chapter 7 : To Qualify As A Phoenix...
So… Where the fuck do I even begin??? Let’s start with Bub. My beautiful boy. You realise he’s nearly 3? 3!! I don’t feel ready to have a 3-year-old. I’m not ready to accept that he’s no longer a...
So… I’ll pick up from where I left of…kind of. So I ate 2/3s of the little Domino’s pot…and lived to regret it within about 2 hours. As an allergy mum, you will NEVER EVER EVER EVERRRR forget th...
Not the casino kind... in Chapter 7 : To Qualify As A Phoenix...
So… Pidge has now been with us for a month. I’ve taken the tags off her and decided she can stay, even if she doesn’t sleep in her crib. She’s the spitting image of her big brother and me, which ...
It's hard enough catching a ball... in Chapter 7 : To Qualify As A Phoenix...
So… I’m cold. Literally. I’m cold because I spend most of my day in a vest, feeding Pidge She’s gorgeous and totally worth the suffering, but none the less, I’m bloody cold. Yesterday Pidge turn...
Then Sleep In A Cupboard... in Chapter 7 : To Qualify As A Phoenix...
So…I had a baby. Pidge was born 11th Feb at 2:22pm. She weighed in at a healthy 7lb 15oz. They sterilized me and also gave me a tummy tuck, you know, just because. I joke, of course, they did gi...
He has met his German counterpart... in Chapter 6 : Just Beginning The Second.
So…I feel like my vagina is being used for penalty training for the England Rugby Squad. I’m sorry, TMI? Totally not sorry. I have less than a week until this little person is cut out of me, and ...
So it's that kind of party... in Chapter 6 : Just Beginning The Second.
So… Pidge is really desperate to get out now. She’s against my cervix more often than not, and that stings like a bitch. I really will be surprised if she stays put until her date…which is only n...