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There are reasons behind her silence. Believe me, it's not ignorance. She cares about a lot of things, more than you might think. She just chooses not to say much. She fears she might cause a rio...

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I can't believe that this is really happening now. I'm counting down the days again - and they're going by so fast. After notifying my GM about my will to resign, I texted Charles - my future em...

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How can one lie so much and live with that? How well do they sleep every night? How much is at stake when one is so good at being so fake? They look at me and sneer as they say: "Aren't you funn...

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Have you ever dealt with quite plenty of goodbyes in such a short time? Like, for example, you had no choice but to have started this year by saying goodbyes - different, separate ones - to diffe...

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I see you with my open eyes. It doesn't take long to realise you're the kind who believe you're all that, but I think you're just sad. You sit on your made-up throne, claiming true power is your...

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I've had to stay away from Girusi for a while. I'm sorry, I still can't get over that night. I guess I'm still upset, although probably not as furious as before. I mean, what for? It's not even w...

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Please don't start a fight. I just need us to get along tonight. I know we've never really treated each other right, but let's not attract the crowd. We're both too tired. This same old game has...

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Alright, this is so unlike Katy Perry song – but that night really did feel like a movie... I arrived at De Hooi at past nine. I’d talked to Desi and Emily, two girls from the Fatmawati branch s...

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Some feelings are best kept hidden behind the walls of your heart. They might tear your perfectly intact world apart. Some thoughts are running inside your head. What if they can also drive the w...

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Alright, guess what I normally do when certain events in my life feel like a novel plot or a movie. That’s right, people; I write a long entry about it, so here we go: Despite the fact that I w...

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Have you seen her today? The last time he recalls, she was still right in his arms. Her tiny fingers touched his stubbly face, her girlish giggles caused that warmth in his gaze. Have you seen h...

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"Am I strong enough to walk on water? Smart enough to come out in the rain? Or am I a fool, going where the wind blows?" ("Going Where The Wind Blows" - Mr.Big) Last Sunday, I didn't come hom...

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He's told me about you - two lovely souls so pure and true. Your sweet, childlike innocence is a blessing. It's the world of joy you bring. Semih, I'd like to get to know you. He says you're coo...

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I couldn't really sleep well last Friday night. I'd stayed awake until around two in the morning, going online. There's a new teacher at the school...again. His name's Justin and he's from Brigh...

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I wish for your arms around me, instead of this sweater and blanket. But you're already asleep, so this is just as far as I can get. Never mind, love. For me, your presence is already enough. Fe...

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"Where do we go from here?" Don't you hate that question? It often sounds like a goodbye. You ask that when you're not sure whether you're still going to see that person - or people - again. Or...

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This solid ground is a silhouette. The comfort zone feels like the weakest bet. Where do I go from here? Will they remember me if I disappear? Forever is an absurd concept, when there are th...

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I didn’t celebrate Vesak, but I was glad for the public holiday on May 15. You see, that’s the advantage of living in my country. Whatever your religion is (or even if you’re a closeted agnostic ...

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The crescent moon is shaping a mysterious smile in the dark tonight. I'm stranded in the unknown, waiting for the already lost spark of light. Where has it gone? What has been done? Sometimes t...

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Alright, I know I didn't write that much on my last entry. My mood was broken - and I have to be careful. I try not to reveal too much of my work-related life. I have to be professional, right? ...

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Let me sleep tonight. I don't want another fight. I don't care who's wrong or right. I only need some decent sleep tonight. So let me sleep tonight, or there'll be some serious fight and none of...

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People say I have a habit of retreating behind my wall whenever things go wrong. Maybe it's half-true, but they forget something: I don't hide behind my walls forever. I just need some time and ...

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Night-time chatterers. Speculations behind this door. Who's that girl in B-17? How has she been? How come she never comes out? Her ghostly existence causes suspicions and doubts. Still, no need ...

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Dear Dad, I've seen you in my last dream. You were back to your 33-year-old self. That should be a good thing, eh? That should mean you're alright there. So we've passed the first 100 days sinc...

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I didn't get to dream about him for quite some time - until last night... I was lost in the crowd. The place looked like either a mega-mall or a bus / train station. I couldn't really tell, exce...

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