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A whole new level of depressed. in Since OD is shutting down....
The past few days, well basically for about a week now I’ve felt this nagging, incessant feeling of sorrow and sadness. It doesn’t help that the weather is STILL miserable. These sub zero temps a...
Hormones are a mother. in Since OD is shutting down....
Tuesday was really fucking bad. I was really down and then decided to message Eric. I feel like I just have to keep reaching out to him because it’s his kid too. It was the same old story of his ...
Dental exam. in Since OD is shutting down....
I had to be at the dentist at 8 this morning. It was brutal getting up and starting the car to get there. I am so beyond sick of it being sub zero fucking temps that I could fucking scream. They ...
People fucking suck. in Since OD is shutting down....
It’s been an absolute train wreck of a week and I’m so fucking glad I was off today, I’m off tomorrow and don’t have to return to my shit hole of a fucking job until Tuesday afternoon at 4pm. I h...
Doing alright. in Since OD is shutting down....
It’s been a few days since I blocked Eric again and I’m doing fine. My best friend says I keep trying with him because I do want him around but once I realize that it’s just not going to work and...
Anxious. in Since OD is shutting down....
I think I’ve been alone in my head too much since yesterday and my anxiety is coming back. I really need to start finding people to socialize with on my days off because I hate feeling like this ...
I hate people. in Since OD is shutting down....
So it’s been a pretty decent week, except the past couple of days dealing with people won’t do know how to think before they speak. I was at work Friday night and I was talking to this 17 year ol...
Another day. in Since OD is shutting down....
Today hasn’t been too bad. I of course hung out at home all day by myself like I always do and then I bought a baby swing before work. It’s super cute and I love the colors. It swings, vibrates, ...
Counseling. in Since OD is shutting down....
I had my appointment yesterday and I think it went well. It was definitely nice just to sit down and talk with someone that I don’t have to worry about gossip or bullshit that can make me look at...
Christmas is finally over!! in Since OD is shutting down....
Literally I couldn’t be more thrilled. I fucking hate holidays because I always spend them by myself. I didn’t hear from anyone I was related to yesterday and because it was a full on blizzard, I...
Good morning. in Since OD is shutting down....
I’m having another feel good day and I’m loving it. I told my friend how good I feel and she says I must have gotten over the hump. I’m sure that all the things I was doing had to detox from my b...
Home in Since OD is shutting down....
I worked 4:30 to 8:30 tonight. I had a pretty decent time and then I went over to my friends house. I just can’t believe how awesome I feel. My appetite has calmed down ALOT, my hips aren’t killi...
Shower. in Since OD is shutting down....
I just showered. I love taking showers, it’s literally the best part of my day. I kinda want to go get some baby stuff today like diapers, wipes, and shampoo but I don’t know. It’s cold and I hav...
Wow. in Since OD is shutting down....
So yesterday was the first day in weeks I actually felt like I was going to get through the day without a nap or be tired early in my night. I threw a bunch of stuff away to make more room for ba...
Fuck this place. in Since OD is shutting down....
Okay so last night we had our Christmas party. There was 2 girls that were to text me so we could meet up and walk in together (I didn’t want to deal with awkward like last year) that didn’t get ...
New number. in Since OD is shutting down....
Last night was more than I could handle with Eric. He’s just such a mean, argumentative person and I finally had enough. He loves to blame me for EVERYTHING, be just as nasty as possible, and say...
Bored. in Since OD is shutting down....
Since I haven’t had cable for a couple of months now, I’m stuck watching movies or old episodes of Roseanne that I have on DVD. There’s a few things I watch on Netflix and Huluplus but I’m just g...
Another day. in Since OD is shutting down....
So yesterday I get a letter in the mail saying I need to go to some job workshop thing on the 28th so I called and made sure they knew I had a fucking job. The lady said that maybe it’s because I...
I'm going to be okay. in Since OD is shutting down....
I’ve done a lot of thinking and talking to my friend to realize that whether anyone makes any effort with me and my pregnancy, I’m going to be just fine. I’ve allowed myself to be super upset and...
Super emotional. in Since OD is shutting down....
I had a very busy day. I’ve been up since 7am and it’s my day off. I talked to my friend, took a shower, made some phone calls, wrote a check for my electric bill and then saw my buddy in the hos...
Decent last couple of days. in Since OD is shutting down....
I worked all day Saturday and finally told most of my co-workers about my child. Everyone was super supportive. There was a couple that were completely shocked too. I just felt like I was hiding ...
Suppository, no support system. in Since OD is shutting down....
So I finally broke down and did a suppository. I did juice, stool softeners, Miralax, Milk Of Magnesia and a shit ton of water, and still nothing. I finally went within about 5 minutes and feel s...
New OB, constipation. in Since OD is shutting down....
So I’ve had some issues with constipation and yesterday I had a really bad stomachache right away in the morning so I call and talk to my nurse. The second I mention the word constipated, she sta...
7 weeks!!! in Since OD is shutting down....
Today has been ridiculously busy for me and I was about to scream by the time I finally got home. I had to go to the food bank this morning because I’m so broke and needed some damn food. Honestl...
I have more to say. in Since OD is shutting down....
I definitely don’t mean to be negative or anything but this is really my only outlet, next to my friend that calls every morning on her way to work. I’m really sad that I don’t have more people t...
