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NPR has this weird little one minute show from the McDonald observatory called “Stardate” that is my favorite thing about NPR. They play a little ambient piano rift and talk about the positi...

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I get these odd little waking dreams, not as much as I used to sadly, of places that my imagination generates (I think?) and fills out with the subtle details of a lived-in world replete with a ...

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I had the creeps this morning, though it passed by noon as the temperatures rose, and I’m not sure exactly where they came from. Something about the light. The way the shadows weren’t at all whe...

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Sam Rockwell, one of my all time favorite actors since Lawn Dogs, has a pretty incredible scene in the newest season of White Lotus where he describes kind of coming around full circle on the ps...

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Heard someone say that mid panic attack earlier and it ran me over like a bus. Not just because I knew the home they were talking about was gone, as of last year. Not just because I share ...

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There is this long driveway past a couple old apple trees to a tall farmhouse that haunts my memory for some reason. Inside there were a bunch of puppies running around a laundry room with the...

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The ice storm was the closest thing to a religious experience that I’ve had in a while. Never seen anything like it. I live in a city, which for all intents and purposes is really just a town, b...

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It takes time to make peace with yourself. It’s hard to accept that you’re not a good guy. Or a bad guy. It’s hard to stop punishing yourself for doing bad things, by doing more bad things. ...

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I’m beginning to get that Apocalypse Now eye. Twitchy. Paranoid. Unsure of anything. Not confidant in myself, or anyone. I feel like I aught to wake up. Like the dream has been revealed, and now...

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I have this…friend. “Had” this friend might be a better way to put it. We were extremely close for decades. Met in high school. He reminded me of my Grandpa- very warm, very generous, and we l...

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I realized the other day how similar my tiktoking mirrors the time I used to spend reading the comics section, back before news consumption happened on the phone- when it still occurred dail...

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I keep meaning to get out to visit my grandma, but work has been relentless this winter season. I miss her though, and I don’t know how long I have left with her. She’s very old, now my oldest l...

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At some point in the 1930s someone mopped black mastic tar, mostly from recycled tires, across my beautiful old growth wood floors, and parting my planks with this black goo has proven difficult...

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“Advertising is about one thing: happiness.” I was in the tub watching Four Weddings & A Funeral the other day (yet another indictment of the modern dramady) when it was interrupted by a si...

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Instincts are generational coping mechanisms. Evolution is weaponized scar tissue for the purpose of escaping the trauma that caused it. How many tree frog ancestors were eaten before one beg...

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What sort of armor do you wear, and what buffs do you get from it? If you live in the city, dressing well, or dressing with a specific style, can have various intended effects, not only on one’...

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Do you ever have out of body experiences? I sometimes find myself telescoping away from myself, figuratively, leaving myself far behind, far below, as a tiny dot- with all of life and humanity a...

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Finally had it with NPR this afternoon after listening to my 731st rerun about the ethical nature of slavery reparations and turned it to Christian NPR, one station up, on the off chance that I ...

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I am currently listening to 3 women on NPR talking about how the ‘male loneliness epidemic’ is ‘overblown,’ why men’s problems are men’s fault, and how they can solve them by becoming more like ...

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Who are we, exactly? Are we who we wish to be? Who we choose to be? Or are we who we don’t wish to be? Who we never chose to be? Jung talks about The Shadow Self. Feral, product of the Id. Eve...

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There is a particular plot device in (good) horror scenarios in which the pleasant reality we think we know is actually a fiction disguising a horror, and the goal becomes escape. Movies like 20...

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Some mornings, whether or not there’s a reason for it, this long black claw emerges from depths forgotten to lampoon my heart and pull it down, down, down. Maybe there is obvious cause, but some...

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The stars all winked at me They shouted: child!- Your funeral, my trial. The universe has a lot to answer for. I’m not sure its offerings of sublime beauty make up for the abject horror living ...

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And why Art is more important than Science. There are many different types of Love songs. Love songs about new romance butterflies. Love songs about loss and grief. Love songs about separation ...

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