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Every time I come here to write, my brain either just shuts down or goes a mile a minute and can’t settle. But I need to write, even if just to clear my head. For now… a random mishmash of thi...
Well, I’ve been trying to change some small, daily bad habits into better ones while the bigger picture has been relatively stable. But I found out the bigger picture will not be staying stable f...
Coming Back to Life in General
It’s a day for the foundation of new habits and new mindsets, if only one step at a time. Overhauls take time and patience, something I’m not particularly good at. A light out of the darkness or ...
Pride is something that is talked about a lot, and often in both positive and negative terms. Arrogance, cockiness, hubris, a sin.... But it’s also something to aim for. Pride in yourself, in y...
Can't think of a title in 2019
My brain’s all over the place…not in a bad way, but in an “I can’t seem to focus on one thing” kind of way. I had my first post-school continuing education workshop this weekend, and it was such ...
Making your own path is tough work in 2019
So....where to start. Things should be settling down for me in the near future. I’ve stretched myself very thin financially and energy-wise the past year plus, but it was necessary in order to...
Inconsistent in 2018
Depression is real....and it’s been an up and down struggle lately. Combined with the sleep issues and often rough schedule right now, it makes for a chronically exhausted balancing act of where ...
I have several things I want to write about…grand ambitions and all…but my mind’s too jumbled to focus well right now. I can’t really seem to hold onto one train of thought. So we shall see wha...
A Year of... in 2018
Changes A new address (still in Orlando). Back in school (for a year). A car accident (not my fault), and so a new (used) car. New position and schedule at work. Financial struggles (tied to a...
Storm has passed in 2017
Irma is gone, and all is well. I was without power for nearly 24 hours, but that was it. No structural damage (thanks for being in an apartment complex), no water issues. A lot of wind and deb...
The Eye of the Storm (not really) in 2017
For those who don’t know, I’m one of the ones hunkered down in the path of Irma. I currently live on the west edge of Orlando, not far from the tourist capital of the world, aka Land of the Mous...
Pre-bed Quickie in 2017
....which isn’t nearly as much fun as it sounds. Mood’s been all over the place today, though no real reason why. Bronchitis is clearing up, though there’s still a ways to go. One more dosage o...
This will be short, but then it’s mostly for me. An attempt to restart some writing of some form, something I’ve been wrestling with a lot lately. I’m recovering from a bout of sinus infection a...
I find my mind in an odd place this evening, sitting here reading through entries (and listening to sirens up and down the road every few minutes - normal). Not in a bad mood at all. Just.... I...
Brain Cramp in 2015
So many things running through my head lately.... It’s hard for me to really make sense of it all.... Identity, and how we see ourselves. Is it based on choices, actions, perception? Mistakes? ...
Date and Memory in Topics
We often tie important memories to specific dates, and specifically to annual remembrance of those dates. Birthdays, anniversaries, new places, new jobs, important meetings, promotions, one-time...
A few quick things I plan to revisit soon, now that things have settled down. The move is done, though I’m still unpacking stuff, particularly in the kitchen..... and there are a ridiculous num...
Headstrain in 2015
This work schedule is wearing me out. I like the work I do (it’s relatively simple and straightforward, and physically demanding), but it can be exhausting. And getting up at 1:30 am sucks, esp...
Short Update in 2015
There’s so much to write about, and I intend to soon. This is mostly a list of things as a reminder to myself before I head to bed. There are a lot of changes in the air, both here and with pe...
Things on my mind in 2015
So many things going on lately. The past week or so has been the craziest, most stressful emotional roller coaster of a week I’ve had since my dad died. My grandfather was put in the hospital a...
My mind’s not in a great place right now. It’s a few days til the anniversary of my dad’s death, and there’s also a general....loneliness that I can’t shake. And now Anna’s got a new boyfriend....
Educational Focus in 2014
I’ve found myself reading a lot lately, particularly nonfiction. I go through phases where I’ll read a lot, then periods where I don’t much. But I definitely find myself happier and more.... st...
Why is it that you can go to a place like Disney World (which might do this better than anywhere else), suspend your disbelief, and actually let go of a lot of negative things while you’re there?...
So I had to escape for a bit..... My grandmother died early Wednesday morning after two weeks in hospice care, and just a week after her 93rd birthday. It was a very long two weeks, and the whol...
Roller Coaster in 2014
So much to write about...... this will just be a short one to remind myself to go into more details later. It just feels like the body blows keep coming to the family. My grandmother was admitted...
