Downsyde
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Predetermined in Book 1
Between October and yesterday, other than that tournament earlier this year, I have watched precisely 2 minutes of hockey this year and I have to say ...the fact that it included douche canoe ...
I had a dream last night that you were somewhere in the room And I didn't know for sure, I just knew that you were there I felt your presence on my back and on my shoulders And I slept li...
I don't know if this is for you. I don't know if you need this. I don't know if you want this. I can't let it go. I just need to let it go. I keep this in...to myself I never wanted t...
In the moment in Book 1
I want to feel the dirty hurt I want to lay it on the line I want to inhale And exhale saying that love was what I gave it all for I don't want to leave it all unsaid I don't want to...
The Playlist in Book 1
I made the playlist...She made one ... We put them together... It's shared...it's a metaphor...for the thing that we are building. And I am not setting the pace. See... Usually it's me drivin...
Double Shot of Bliss in Book 1
These darkened halls don't hide all the stories my soul has to tell But when I move to flick off the light cuz the night bleeds into the day I can't feel it inside anymore, it's like it doesn'...
I Just Couldn't Not in Book 1
See, I did a thing once and it wasn't necessarily a bad thing beforehand. I didn't think it was. But I really wanted to do it. I was in the place a couple days before and I saw the thing and...
I feel like this... in Book 1
I feel like this fucking song... And I feel so dumb about it. I made somebody a fucking playlist like a 15-year-old. I mean, it was a good playlist but still. I'm constantly flicking my finge...
Be Awake For This in Book 1
My eyes don’t need to see the things you do I can sense it just fine In the quiet evening moments With your arms slung around my neck I take you in and I know everything I need to And I...
This Is The Fruit We Bear in Book 1
Save your words, These days they’ll fall on deaf ears I’m not the one to put you back together this time You’re pushing against the waves that will not succumb to the tide Who are you to wa...
Letter #90 in Book 1
With a bullet I wish you were here, It's been a minute since we've been in the same place at the same time but I fully blame your jet-set lifestyle. I take comfort in the fact that you'll ...
Notes Scrawled in Lipstick in Book 1
Your blonde and red hair reminds me that we can be young for as long as we want to be... Which is wonderful because I don't know for how long or how gracefully I can grow old... It all happe...
She wants to make my life better, she says. But... She says I deserve it. But... She says that I make her happy. But... I don't know if I believe it. And then there's the dynamic. She crav...
Calm Like A Bomb in Book 1
hah, I didn't even last a day. Anyway, I asked an ex the other day if she remembers how calm I used to be in stressful situations and/or crises and how it'd sometimes tick 'em off. I said I'...
I am going to write something in here everyday until December 31st (probably not) and it's going to be amazing (probably not) and you will all read it in wonder (probably not). Anyway, I can'...
Coincidences abound...she was the one from that night. What are the chances? I wish my fingers would wake up...a covid side effect? It's Christmas. Praise Jesus!
From The Vault in Book 1
This pressure keeps building Step off my chest and let me breathe I know all the things you’ll say Save ‘em, I don’t want to hear ‘em I’m fucking done with your theatrics I can’t keep ...
Searching For a Former Clarity in Book 1
Let this be the endLet this be the last songLet this be the endLet all be forgiven Because really, what else is there? When you look back on your life, close to death, what do you see? Me? No...
OK Let me digress, as you've been keeping me sane, and it might be inappropriate but whoever in your life that's supposed to be telling you this, isn't. So, I'm going to tell you straight up....
I missed the first two days, that's probably not outta character. Saturday was another panic attack. I wish I knew why these were happening. It's new. My doc wants to medicate the problem a...
A Couple Weeks in Book 1
Or weekends that she'll be here and that'll be that. It's not a surprise. She wasn't destined to be here for long, her future is brighter than this dusty watering hole. I s'pose that's th...
This isn't Really the Start in Book 1
Cancer, aneurism, stroke, heart attack My skin peeling back to expose an empty sore as wide as a black hole All I can think about is death - mine, specifically. I feel like I smell like it. ...
