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I don't know who I am
That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt.
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why in Depression
What did I do to deserve this? Did I do something in a previous life to make the universe hate me and think ‘okay we’ll get back at her by giving her a crippling depression’ ?What have I done to ...
ugh in Depression
Felt fine earlier. Now feeling like I can’t hold in the tears anymore. Just suddenly everyone decided like everything was my fault and giving out to me was the thing to do today. I just hate this...
07/09 in Depression
Kill me
sinking in Depression
What is it like to like yourself? To actually be pleased with who you are as a person? You know, whenever I tell someone how I feel, it’s like they think I’m just overreacting. Like I’m making a...
miserable in Depression
I can’t stand feeling like this anymore. It’s such a miserable way to live. Do you have any idea what it’s like to hate yourself so much that you just feel like there’s nothing you can do to hel...
friendship in Depression
How can some people who are supposed to love you so much be so cruel and heartless to you even though they know it'll hurt you? I would never say anything to my best friend that I thought might h...
R.I.P in Depression
When I saw the headlines of the newspaper on Wednesday morning, I couldn't believe what I was reading.The title was so blunt; "Robin Williams commits suicide". I stood in shock as my family order...
R.I.P in Depression
When I saw the headlines of the newspaper on Wednesday morning, I couldn't believe what I was reading.The title was so blunt; "Robin Williams commits suicide". I stood in shock as my family order...
hate in Depression
I just want to be thin. That's all I want. I'm going in the wrong direction. I absolutely hate myself. I just can't stand this
weight loss pills in Depression
Read my previous post first x I don't want to post them back. I want to keep them and test them out for myself. Besides, sending them back would mean I would have to tell my mum. Which I don'...
Garcinia Cambogia in Depression
Okay so this stuff is meant to be like a revelation in weight loss. It's been on dr.oz and such. It's everywhere online and I was intreaged. I bought some, along with the cleanse that it recomme...
thin in Depression
It's so difficult to lose weight. I want nothing more than to be slim. It may seem like a dumb goal but I don't care. You wouldn't understand unless you've lived as me. Having your mind tell you ...
what keeps me going in Depression
In two weeks I'll be 18. I honestly didn't think I would make it to 18. It just didn't seem possible. But now it does. Even though I'm feeling horrible, I have the probability of new meds to look...
self in Depression
I absolutely hate myself. I hate how I look. I hate how much I weigh. I hate the fat. I just hate it all and I'm so tired of feeling like a failure. Why can't I do this? What the fuck is wrong wi...
stuff in Depression
I guess I haven't really written here in a while have I? Like a good, solid entry. So the exams went okay. Not as awful as I thought. Which was good. But I thought after they were over I would f...
guess in Depression
"You make me wanna die, I won't ever be good enough, You make me want to die, And everything you love, Will burn up in your lies." The Pretty Reckless
hair in Depression
I'm starting to pull out my hair. What the fuck is wrong with me. I have a little bald spot. I feel like I'm going crazy
night in Depression
5am. Thoughts are too strong. Can't stop crying. I can't do this anymore. It's too hard.
sad in Depression
Ugh, life is just bad right now
honest in Depression
So, I made my cut worse. I basically pierced it. In one side and out the other. I wanted to continue after I did it. I think it vould be getting infected. To be honest, I kind of want it to be. ...
rant in Depression
Okay so I kind of need to rant. I'm really not well. I can't stop cutting myself. Everything about myself disgusts me. I'm sick of the clinic I've been going to, they are not helping and make m...
ignored in Depression
I can't stand being ignored. Especially for something that isn't my fault. I'm not well and I wish people would realise that and not expect so fucking much from me
hate in Depression
So, okay. Lately there have been a lot of ups and downs, mainly downs. I've been cutting a lot more. I'm scared. I just hate myself so much. I wish I could feel something else for myself, but I j...
life in Depression
I don't know how to live anymore. Or maybe I just don't want to try
self harm in Depression
So after years and years of self harming and being misunderstood by the humans who don't, someone I know and love has started. My best friend. I wouldn't want my worst enemy to feel this way and...
