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gas station story in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
to clarify: not a story I’ve written just a story about something that happened at the gas station yesterday. right so yesterday I went out. i’m back to going out on sun. again. it’d been 2 wks. ...
my goals for this wk. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
1: brush teeth 2x 2: let steph/jenn know when I’ve had their liquor 3: to not call/text evan [again. goin for 2 wks. this time. this is the 2nd wk. I did well on this last wk.] 4: to get more vit...
i feel like blogging. so here. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
like the title says. instead of blogging about what’s actually been going on. as usual i’m avoiding. um so awhile back I was at the store and I was in the bakery section and this lady comes up to...
my depression. it’s at a 9 today instead of an 8. er I mean a 10 instead of . er. no wait. so it’s been at a 10 but it was at a 9 today. yeah there we go. and I didn’t do a whole lot. um. we had ...
restless. and RLS. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
omfg. [rls is restless leg. well I refer to it as RLS]. lately. I’ve had RLS. my mom has it. and the reason I’ve never looked it up is cause. um. I feel like if I were to. do that. it’d make it w...
and no not that. and by ‘that’ I mean sex. no i’m talin bout vitamin d. so. my family & I went out for my dad’s birthday lunch. we went to a Mexican place. we sat outside. it was sunny for a ...
alrite that's it. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
i’m getting some vitamin d. tomorrow [well certainly not now as it’s dark out. well I know they do make lightboxes but I don’t have one, so]. well. not only cause i’ll be out walking and it’ll be...
my goals for this wk in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
well same as last wk. and to: 1: not call/text evan. 2: be nice-r to my dad. his birthday’s tomorrow [the 10th]
um so. my new mentor. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
I’ve mentioned him before. Clint. he’s super nice. that was the 2nd thing I noticed about him. [the first was that he’s cute]. and he’s gay. he basically outed himself to me when I asked why he h...
omygod it makes so much sense now in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
so I was reading up. on like sleep or something recently I don’t remember what. but it somehow read [er read. led] it somehow led to my reading up on insomnia. it was an article on WebMD. and thi...
i'm also getting better at. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
not hovering. i’m a hover-er. i.e. like when i’m at my mom’s and she goes into the kitchen I used to follow her. but I don’t do that now. I um. ...........I’ve not done it for about a month. I th...
The amazing eva Cassidy does an um amazing [not to get all redundant] cover of that song. omygod. I llove her. [she’s a blues singer from the 90’s who died of cancer when she was 33. for those wh...
i'm literally dying - evan in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
yeah so he called last night. he being evan. and we talked. not really about much. I told him my news. I told him how much weight i’d put on he was. er surprised. we didn’t go into detail about t...
so emotional in Moving/SSI/host homes
omygod. the depression’s back again. er not that it ever like left. or anything. no it’s worsened. i’m seeing someone about it [that and other things] and we’ve gone over what to do about it, so....
and new mentor in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
so on that note. the Pat one. my new mentor Clint [yes as in eastwood. I keep wanting to call him ‘tim’] reminds me of Pat. he loves music and he has this appreciation for life. it’s a bit incred...
music. and Pat. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
so on that note. the one about my friends who’ve passed. I’ve been thinking about Pat recently. I think about him a lot. like daily in fact. ya know. it makes sense he went on karaoke night cause...
and on that note the ghost one. I talked to her yesterday. kar- my friend who’d passed almost 10 yrs. ago this coming oct. so yeah yesterday. I went outside a bank by the mall and talked to her. ...
yes more on this. ya know. usually i’m a pathological people pleaser. due to my past. i’m still trying to please them even though they’re not a part of my life anymore and haven’t been for a long...
um. in Moving/SSI/host homes
um. so. idinno. i don’t want to feel. empty. and ifeel like again. ifi did things to appease steph [and not to appease me. i’m not happy when she’s put out i’m relieved] i would. and i don’t like...
i love pink Floyd. anyway more on this. so. as put. there’s someone in my head but it isn’t me. er well maybe it is me maybe the ‘someone else’ in the song lyric ‘ i feel like i’m living someone ...
i. this..........this is. really weird. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
I don’t. I don’t know who I am anymore. no it’s not that it’s. I don’t. connect to who I am or who everybody thinks I am. at these hrs. 11 p.m., midnight..............not. not nightly just. well ...
the calander thing in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
ok so here’s how I see things in my head. well firstoff I think in pictures. like I see the days of the wk. as a pill box type thing but it’s white. and it has ‘Mon’., ‘Tues.’, Wed.’ [you get the...
doing w/ my goals in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
how i’m doing w/ my goals. um ok. these were my goals. so my goals for this wk. were/are: 1: to brush my teeth at least once daily [which I’ve been doing. at 4 a.m. and not the way I should. but...
alyssa in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
so in one of my previous recent [er well obviously my previous entries. you’re welcome] I mentioned alyssa but didn’t explain how we met or anything. well alyssa is a mall resident that I keep th...
other happenings in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
so, in othe happenings. well um. right after I woke up like 5 mins. after jenn and I did a room check. we finished in 30 mins. I guess she wanted to finish in an hr. she only went through 2 of my...
