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depression and tired. and. yesterday. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
this is from june 22nd: ‘yesterday wasn’t a bad day I just don’t like father’s day esp. all the reminders on fb. but it was also my friend’s [evan’s] bday, so. I don’t have a good relationship w....
oh wow. hair and i just. wow. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
this is from june22nd: ‘um so I just washed my hair like. 10 mins. ago. which you know. in and of itself isn’t that big a thing. well I washed it in front of jenn. the other thing I like about h...
no one r*pes the willing. [on SA] in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
this is actually from june 24th: ‘yeah so my friend [evan] & I were talking recently. as we do. and he said something eluding to the fact that [I don’t want to remember what] that I chose to ...
more tired 3 in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
this is actually from this morning something like 3 a.m. ok onto something else. the past 3 days prior to this one [it’s sat. here] I was more tired those 3 days than i’d been since I got back fr...
i don't want to change being chaotic in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
i’m like fire in a way. [well I am a leo. i’m also. really into astrology]. I can be warm and pretty but also destructive. ya know. I was thinking about this when I was at my park yesterday. and ...
another dream about 'that' *PTSD/SA* in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
this is actually from last night 9:30 p.m.: ‘I don’t remember the last time I had a dream about it seems like it’s been awhile. um. ‘they’ were there the guys who...........yeah. and Christopher....
ya know. as I’ve mentioned in here I don’t separate. which isn’t always er like ‘bad’. ya know there’s nothing wrong w/ that. it just sometimes makes it hard. like ok. when I was r*p-‘that’ the l...
for Christopher. I don’t know when Stephanie hasn’t told me I don’t think she knows when. but i’m invited. I don’t know if i’ll go. I mean I didn’t know him that well and I dn’t want to goo and b...
how i'm doing w/ my goals in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
which were: 1: brush teeth 2x daily 2: let steph/jenn know when I’ve had their liquor 3: to not call/text evan [again. goin for 2 wks.] 4: to get more vit. d in liquid form. and to get more vi...
it's just. odd. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
so i’m healthy. er well i’m health-ier than I’ve been in. awhile. for the most part. it’s just. odd. i’m not drinking i’m not smoking I haven’t had any major relapses. I mean i’m physically healt...
what a time to be alive in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
well. actually any day you’re alive [er.........] is a time to be alive just bc you are alive. fact is. we’re all really g*damn lucky to be here whether we like it or not. whether we want to be o...
this is exactly why i'm so depressed in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
i’m too tired/don’t have the motivation to get a cup of milk and drink it which would help [cause it has protein in it which I don’t have enough of] which is one reason i’m so damn depressed. it’...
i got my period in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
I got it the end of last month too. I got them around the beginning of the month and then they changed to the middle and now it’s at the end. so yeah like I mentioned I got it. which is. ok. i’d ...
i feel. almost relieved in a way in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
‘not that he went. but, when Christopher was living at my house. there was a time when I was subjected to his verbal abuse. even though it wasn’t towards me. I had the option of moving but I chos...
i have sad news [again] in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
My former roommate Christopher passed. either yesterday or today. I don’t.............. it sounds like it went ok. it sounds like he was comfortable. I hope he was. I hope that for anybody. it di...
give him something he can feel in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
people have been doing that lately. it’s a song. by Aretha [as in franklin]. it was in the movie ‘sparkle’ the remake. I don’t know if it was in the original as I’ve never seen that one. Clint’s ...
so this was awesome. yay. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
‘yay. omygod. yeah so fb. it put Luiza F. as someone I might know. and so I went to her page and.......Lu [and until I saw the spelling I thought it was ‘Lou’] was one of my good bar friends. I d...
so today. nothing happened. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
‘a good day. for me is when steph & I don’t talk. and today so far we haven’t. it’s been nice. so today. like I put nothing happened. except I haven’t eaten yet. I don’t at my house during th...
something else that happened recently. w/I the last wk. ‘which well more often than not I have been brushing my teeth. um but no. so on mon. before clint [again he’s my new mentor] came I um. I w...
which ya know. in and of itself isn’t that big of a thing. I should be. ok - good in that dept. they haven’t in like 4 months. I figured it would come up eventually. I meant to weigh myself at be...
I think. part of my depression has to do w/ protein deficiency. [however. all my b vitamins. er ‘b vitamins’. fat soluble vitamin levels are good, so]. yeah earlier I was looking up the signs of ...
‘I really want to leave right now. my house. where no i’m not being abused. it’s 2:40 in the morning. I mean I. I could no one’s stopping me. I know where i’d go too. they. the people in my life....
it's lack of protein. and other things. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
more vitamin/anorex. talk. my depression isn’t entirely caused by lack ofprotein but the me being tired all the damn time. er. I mean that part of my depression. is. which I knew. I just wante...
unless i’m wrong which idinno I might be. so. a few times I’ve felt like fear is being used to motivate me which I don’t think is healthy. and my friend mark agrees. and alexis agrees. but no one...
the other. major part of my life right now. as usual I don’t want advice just updating. omfg. Stephanie she’s. the same as she always is pushy and bubbly and too damn happy and. not t all low key...
