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as put. i know we’re not together anymore and we haven’t been in over 2.5 yrs. but. i. i still want him to be mine. my ex that is. idinno i guess. like we spent so much time together. but the ti...

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um..........wow. last night into this morning i was upset for. um. 4 hrs during one of which i had this long panic attack. thing. well it wasn’t a panic attack cause to me i’ve only experienced t...

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i. i’m a godamn wreck. this doesn’t happen often. i can’t handle the pressure. and for once i’m being realistic. i can’t handle the pressure of doing what they want me to do every damn day. i do...

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ok so to be completely honest. so, for the longest time the reason i wouldn’t let my dad in was cause i was angry w/ him. for not doing what he should’ve like fuk 10 yrs. ago. and while i’m still...

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well which i knew before but i wasn’t ready to come to terms w/ it untill now. i’ve known for about 8 months. yeah so Pat.my best friend who passed away almost 2.5 yrs. ago. he um was an alcohli...

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so i meant to put this yesterday which. obviously didn’t happen. 1: teeth, again. 2: to not call/text evan. again. 3: to get more protein. [i’m done w/ the vit. d thing] wk. 2. wk. 1 didn’t go ...

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so the other person who um made a cd for me was my former friend Michael. it’s been 5 yrs. since I last talked to him. well a little over. um. So the first time we hung out we listened to a mix h...

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wow a lot’s happened that i’ve not blogged about. well. i blog when i’m ready. and i think i am. [well he was before this happened]. ok so we’re in his car and he tells me he has new music [i thi...

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evan that is. the only time he hits on me is when he’s drunk. and he hasn’t been drunk in awhile. and that’s quite fun. the him hitting me on me part not the him being drunk part although..........

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online. oh and desperate housewives. well so i was watching the friends ep. where ross and rachel take a break and they have that fight and the other 4 are in the bedroom. well. and so it hit me....

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um. so. mourning’s hard. like evan once told me ‘you’ve been here before’. yeah. i have. so it’s not like it’s new or anything. once again someone left me someone who i didn’t even know. christo...

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so. while evan & i didn’t plan anything for today we also didn’t. not plan anything either. yeah last wk. when we talked about it i told him my schedule and he’s like ‘idinno what i’m doing n...

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sorry, TMI. I feel like I should blog. bc I haven’t in awhile. about the other things that have happened. but I don’t feel like doing that now. um so like I put I got my period. I got it. yesterd...

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Please let me know what you think of the story so far [unless you don’t like it in which case..........]. thank you. Ashley That day after school jesse and karen called evan, Hannah, alexa, rose...

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from yesterday again: ‘which is weird [or maybe not] cause I live in a house w/ um............4 other people. and 4 dogs. and 2 cats. but I don’t spend much time w/ any of them. anyway. i’m back ...

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again. from yesterday: ‘I know I haven’t mentioned this cause well I haven’t blogged in awhile save for today. so my friend CA guy [evan] he came back. er ok so he’d moved to CA almost a yr. ago ...

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this is from yesterday of course. er last night: ‘so jared & them are over. I just had dinner w/ them. well. I was in the kitchen w/ jared [steph’s son in law] and 2 of the guys [steph’s othe...

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I have more goals than usual. 1: teeth, again. i’m on wk. 3 2: to not call/text evan. again. this is wk. 4 3: to get more protein. [i’m done w/ the vit. d thing] 4: to turn off my light. at so...

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so like I put I saw evan on tues. and. well. we saw those white fuzzy things flying in the air. I don’t know what they’re actually called. and he said they were in that movie about the blue peopl...

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yeah cuddles are awesome. cuddles. are pretty damn great. copies from my fb: ‘ I feel. sexy. and I just feel. fuller. idinno if i look any fuller. ya know [or perhaps you don’t] like the pregnant...

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so. I think I’ve mentioned this before. I don’t think of where I live as home. cause home is a feeling not a place. um. sometimes it’s a feeling you get from a place. or a person. but if you don’...

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so I forgot what evan I talked about today. well. no wait tea came up. and drinking. I remember. that I lied down on him on his chest. he’ssuch cuddler. when my chest was on his i kept forgettin...

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so evan’s back. he’s been back for 4 days apparently. I asked him today. we don’t know how long he’s back for. yeah so I was in my park. he calls me and asks what I think aboutgetting together. ...

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remember Richard the guy I really hit it off w/? well if you don’t he’s the guy I. yeah. so I emailed him last er ‘last’. like yesterday/last night/this a.m. saying I hadn’t heard from him in awh...

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er well..........um. yeah so used to be. i’d go to sleep between 4 and 6 a.m. and wake up well sometime after 2. and that worked for me. now I go to sleep the same time. but they want me up by 1...

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