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yeah soforwell ever since tues. night really evan’s been staying w/another friend of his. and solast night when we’re talking he says that one of his roommates is worried cause they can’t find th...

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evan. omygod. it just keeps getting better. not perfect but better. so he called like. at 9 and we talked for a bit about what i don’t remember. right so then. oh so he told me he was going to be...

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to be clear no evan didn’t rape me. he never has. although one night a littleover 2 yrs. ago we almost had sex completely consensual. i was ready and i got all excited and then i. decided i wasn’...

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so i was on this site called aphrodite wounded not sure how many people are familiar. w/ it. and it said something about how some people think maybe if they’d been better in their relationships. ...

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see at least when as soon as the person sees you they rape you. at least like. you don’t have to wonder. they don’t have to keep you under false pretenses for however long. the other way is manip...

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yeah so last night um if i remember correctly. evan called. we talked for 10 mins. and the first thing he says is you missed your chance. and i was already frustrated and all twisted inside. and ...

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i failed to mention this untill now. so much has happened and so much keeps happening. yeah so jennifer the yelling lady’s pregnant. idk when she’s due but i probably won’t see her again untill j...

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‘so last night steph told me how the new ebt’s going to work. So apparently she’s going to keep the card which i’m fine w/. but what i’m not fine w/ is her using it to purchase my groceries. I’ll...

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yes this again. so yesterday was. long. and yet it went by quickly. my days are so long that i’ll thinkof something that happened that morning [like ok on tues. i’ll think of something that happe...

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we’re still good. we almost fought tonight. but didn’t. i was already frustrated and he didn’t have much time to talk and so. then that didn’t help. and i’m like ‘um. i should go’. i’ve learned ...

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so i don’t know. i think alex has emailed jennifer my notes. and i think maybe jennifer and amber have been talking. but i don’t know. so again amber’s in control. apparently they want to get th...

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twice lately he’s called me just to check in. ever since we’ve become us he’s been a lot more attentive. oh. ‘he’ being evan.

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this whole. amber objectifying violation thing. and also. it’s been 5 yrs. and 3 days since i was raped. so that screwed w/ it too. er well i guess that’s not quite what i meant damnit. no it mad...

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so i’m less angry about the amber thing now i’m just hurt. i feel like she objectified me. by a lot of the time talking about me. talking around me like i wasn’t even there. deciding things for m...

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ya know thing is this amber thing was up to me. untill it wasn’t anymore. i told my mom a few things about how i felt about it. and she emailed the notes to alex. and i think alex is going to tal...

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right so like i mentioned evan and i are an us now. we’ve been friends for 3 yrs. [well. we still are] and now we’re ‘us’. it hasn’t been that long it’s only been.......um well today’s the 3rd da...

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1: badmouth my best friend. i’m sorry, my late best friend and 2: piss off the guy i’m seeing [yes. evan i are together now. we decided this tues. but more on this later. we’re us an ‘us’ and i l...

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‘This is what women’s lib was all about. This is what. joan jett [love joan jett[ [or whoever] was all about. being............er not putting up w/ crap. and saying no. er, communicating it [caus...

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i had another dream about rape last night. oh wow............it’s been. about a month since i las had one. um.

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and a correction. so, apparently. amber’s not my case manager. she’s my. residential placement coordinator person. but regardless either way. she shouldn’t’ve done what she did. ok so secondly. i...

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my god i feel like crap [again]. uhm.........right so today. i’m going to talk to my mom about getting a new case manager see what she says.

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i want..........my...........him. the guy who. who raped me to care about what he did. to care about me. that’s why i want to cut right now. even though we haven’t been in contact in almost 5 yrs...

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Please be careful when reading. There are details of my 2nd rape/sex abuse in this. i remember........um. the size of him. not of um it but of him. he was a medium size guy. we were dating at th...

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it’s been. 5 yrs. since my 2nd sex abuse. [and yes given how it happened it can differ from rape]. um. it’s way too real right now. and. i’m irritable as hell cause of my ptsd [which i was diagno...

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yeah so evan’s going to the dentist tom. so basically what happened was that on thurs. he was tackled which led to his front teeth being pushed forward. apparently they hurt. a lot. he’s ok other...

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