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it's not real in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
it’s not. it’s not real. no on thurs. i’ll go back to stephanie’s and everything will be ok. except i won’t and it’s not. like no she didn’t threaten me. but oh no she did. and i didn’t tell her ...
got kicked out in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
in a sense. of my.............of steph’s. i’m at my mom’s till mon. which is when i move into my new house. [well. 3 other people and a dog live there]. so i do have a place to stay. it’s just......
i think. maybe. steph things. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
i think. maybe. steph already has resigned she’s just basically killing time untill i meet the new lady and move in. and when i move in might not be my choice. i don’t trust that it will be. i’m ...
the really fuked up thing. is. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
is. that he knew. and he still.played that care. my ex did the same thing just. in a different way. and my..........the last 2 guys who hurt me did too.
so i might be screwed. but idinno. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
um so. i..........um. there’s a lady in mind for me to meet. she has a dog and a husband. he works w/ cars. she’s vegan and prefers to eat cooked meals. like as opposed to going out to eat/order...
like the song says. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
i, don’t want to leave but i. don’t want to stay here. either.
well. she's somewhat ok w/ it. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
she being steph. she’s somewhat ok w/ me moving. w/ missing out on this wonderful lady. and i feel. idinno. i don’t like this feeling. it’s like well i guess she doesn’t care this much otherwise ...
like what else can she do? in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
steph’s already told me i’m moving via my mom. the only other thing she [steph] can do now is tell me when i’m moving. but that’s really it. not that i’d like that but my point here being that t...
ya know what it's like? it's like. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
it’s like boarding school. so this isn’t something i talk about like ever but when i was 15 [god that was a long time ago] I went to boarding school for 2 yrs. and i left [involuntarily mind you]...
i'm obviously not worth keeping in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
and. if she really cared she’d have kept me longer. well i mean she is. i just want a reason to be upset. a push. and also that sounds abusive the ‘if she really cared she’d...........’ like when...
well since she's apparently giving up on me then..... in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
maybe i’ll give up on her. steph i mean. maybe i’ll stop doing things for her. in fact i already was. i didn’t want to do things to make her happy which was why i stopped. and that’s what led to ...
so now that i'm moving in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
which apparently the decision when/where to move is up to me but i don’t believe that since it wasn’t up to me that i was moving, so. um anyway. but now that i’m moving and since i know that i c...
right so i don't trust her in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
and why would i. steph did warn me. like twice. once back in like feb. and the 2nd time recently. she said um. she was losing patience w/ me or something. and ya know. i always knew it was a poss...
not enough time zero time an hr. all so fast. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
well. so the amber situation got worked out. and before it did my depression worsened. but the day it did the day i found out about the amber situation working out was the exact same day i found ...
it's not about hurting feelings. or, not hurting feelings. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
the reason i’m nice to people. isn’t cause i don’t want to hurt their feelings. well i mean. it’s not like i set out to either most of the time. no um. it’s cause. i don’t want to let people in. ...
evan stuff. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
so i dont know if this actually happened or not but it seems more likely that it did. so from what evan told me [btw he now has a phone] some guy he knew was badmouthing me. i think it might’ve b...
save us a fuk lot of time. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
ya know. i wish for certain things like big things. like well moving for instance. i wish there was some way. for someone who knows you well and has moved to the new house/neighborhood. would li...
she implied that. and yet here we are. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
so the other day. it was either yesterday or the day prior fuk if i remember which one. anyway. steph said something to me like ‘well you’ve already had it hard enough’ implying she didn’t want t...
nevermind i'll find someone like you in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
except that’s the thing. is i don’t want someone like stephanie i haven’t for awhile. i’ve already gone over why. knowing her. she’s going to be all emotionally outwardly expressive about this. s...
say something i'm giving up on you in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
i feel like i’m being given up on. and yeah maybe in a way i am. ya know. cause steph’s the one who decided i’m moving. which yes legally she’s allowed to do. she and jenn. my mom’s the one who t...
so apparently. on compliance. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
so apparently i was mistaken. i thought when i was told to be compliant it meant always having to be nice. for those of you who’ve been following my blog on here. i think you know how i felt abou...
the amber thing in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
so. i have a new service coordinator for a short period. nick who i met yesterday. that’s the only time i’ve seen him but so far he’s nice. i like that he’s someone new and i don’t have a history...
i knew i'd regret it in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
um. right so amber didn’t come to the meeting yesterday. cause she had her baby. but honestly. as much as i don’t like amber. i’d rather have her there then steph. bc of personality. idinno i rel...
yeah i'm disappointed too in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
um. so i’m not actually physically moving. out of my house untill i say i’m ready to far as i know. which well i was before yesterday the news of yesterday as i’d wanted to but it hadn’t become r...
i can't believe how hungry i am. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
yeah so i went to the store today. i was so damn excited. i like going to the store idinno maybe that’s weird. or maybe not. also on my ebt card the amount doubled so that’s another reason i was ...
