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‘i don’t like being the one responsible for breaking his heart. but maybe it won’t i don’t know. but ya know that’s reality. as much as we care about someone we have to break things in order to m...
the future. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
‘sure we all say we know what the future holds but we don’t really. oh sure we all get up at a certain time or go places at a certain time or do things at a certain time or.w/e. but, ya know. bey...
homeward bound i wish i was....... in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
‘ya know. he was my home. i felt safe w/ him. [which, is ironic]. and, that doesn’t happen to me a lot so, it meant something and it still does.actually it meant quite a bit. but. just like the i...
once again. from my fb: ‘he once told me ‘no. i’m gonna love you so i don’t [have] to lose you’. well and at the time.........yeah. but guess what. he’s already lost me. i’ma still be here for ot...
um so on sun. i did my laundry. as usual. on mon. valerie came. we went to chipotle the one by southlands. on tues. i..........i think i went to the store yes that’s right. on wed. i don’t think ...
and again. from my fb: ‘people might be wondering what happened to my compassion. [or maybe they’re not i don’t know]. well that’s the thing. i’ve had it for him. i’ve been nice.........i’ve been...
reviews. no not actual ones. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
and again. from my fb: ‘reviews. [no not actual ones]. ok there are all these reasons to be er w/ him. like a movie has all these good reviews. and then 1 bad one. [not that i pay attention to re...
well........ in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
again. from my fb: ‘and so now we wait. well i do. untill fall which is when i’ll talk to him about this. it’s um it’s been an experience. it’s been interesting. ‘
brothers. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
no i don’t have any. from my fb: ‘he’s like a brother to me. he’s the closest person I have to a brother since Pat........well. goes without saying. but if we come back in however long and he’s s...
ya know. i almost kindof hate to say it but i’m actually somewhat relieved. that this is happening. it’s been a long time coming. like in a way oh thank god. oh thank god i won’t ‘have’ to deal w...
well. in the words of ‘friends’. yeah pretty much. from my fb: ‘yes exactly. or w/ his phone.......or his email. or w/e. i’m not in a relationship w/ someone who has one w/ me. i’m in one w/ som...
say something i'm giving up on you. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
[again]. evan has. till fall to prove himself to me. and if he doesn’t by then............then. that’s it. for 3 months. which means. he has to come every time i’m at my mom’s. at the park. see m...
one of those women who........ in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
from my fb: ‘i’m one of those women stupid enough to think she can change a man. or that anyone can change him really. ‘ yeah. i’m like oh so since he won’t listen to me maybe he’ll listen tosome...
yeah um...............that’s the thing. is evan’s put me through hell as it were. w/ the waiting and the tears and the back and forth. so yeah.
yeah ppretty much. or things will be changing come fall.
that was from my fb. ya know. in like.........fukin dec. after 3 months of not talking to him yeah sure we’ll talk again. after 3 months of being like ok well we’re not getting together. and once...
copied from my fb: ‘it’s a shame that the friendship had to end. ...... . purple rain purple rain........../say something i’m giving up on you.’ um. so yeah. in fall for 3 moths............we’re ...
bad romance/i will always love you in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
copied from my fb: ‘you & me could write a bad romance/i know if i should stay i would only be in your way’ although i’m not in love w/ him. yeah in a way this is a bad romace. something we l...
she's got you. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
[love patsy cline]. um anyway. copied from my fb: ‘i’ve got your memory or has it got me i really don’t know all i know is it won’t let me be. i’ve got the records we used to share and they sound...
so in the fall. i’m going to talk to evan about all this. i’ve already typed up a letter for him [i mean he at least deserves that much]. i just hope, that once and when all this is done, that h...
ya know how i said i’m not a plant? well neither is he. i mean.i’m a really sweet person but.that’s part of my problem. i kindof see him as this guy who’s really fragile and.no i do see him that ...
and when it ends it ends, in tears. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
i um. so on thurs. i was at whole foods for a little over an hr. and i’m there a lot but not for that long a time usually. well that’s the main place i spent that time. and the reason i was there...
ya know..........i was thinkin about this. and to be completely honest. i think the reason i thought [and frankly wanted to] believe that evan wanted me to be sick.was cause i wanted to believe h...
what else? and by ok level i mean.........well so the other day when evan called i asked him if he wanted to take it to the next level. and he’s like ‘what?’ like where the hell’d this come from?...
no hot dogs. [survey again] in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
1: What do you put on hotdogs? um i don’t 2: Do you say “anticlimatic” or “anticlimactic”? ‘climatic’. like where is the um other ‘c’ cause i don’t see it. doesn’t make sense to say a letter th...