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you make it real for me. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
in the words of james morrison. not to be confused w/ jim morrison of the doors. no, james morrison. the blues singer. but anyway. idinno. seeing the paw print was just. so fukin real ya know? [o...
paw prints. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
and one. so we got stevie’s paw print back from the nice vet people. [it’s weird referring to them like that considering what happened.]. and a few nice card/blurb thingys. i cried. well i’m pret...
and absense the absence. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
it’s just.weird. i go to my mom’s hoping to see him onl to realise.oh. you’re not there. the absence, of his physicality. the absence, of his company and that presence that physical presence. and...
and maybe people don't need the whole world to care. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
so in my prior entry i mentioned the people on fb who’d been supportive..........in some way. and ya know. it’s like kermit said. [the frog.]. maybe people don’t need the whole world to care. may...
and support. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
the people on fb. well ok. some of my friends on fb have been supportive. Muriel [Pat’s mom], Lucas [guy i know from HS], Aj [Pat’s brother], Lane [i know him from boarding school], Ru [we dated ...
here's what i miss. stevie. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
here’s what i miss. i miss how sweet he was his sweetness. his physicality. his company. cause he was. good company. i miss his funny-ness. and his always being physically there. ya know i truste...
form sharps thing. alternative um plan. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
i know they’re wanting to meet me halfway w/ the sharps restriction......supervision thing. actually. i was thinking about it and. well what me not signing the form mean for them? [besides well t...
amber room checks sharps marty the form suspension in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
so i have a form. that marty or whoever’s typed up. that says something about how my use-age of sharps is to be supervised. which i don’t agree w/. this copy of the form was typed up in 2016. ano...
amber. and room checks. and sharps. the amber thing. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
yes i’m going to talk about that. firstoff i haven’t in awhile. a long time been almost 4.5 yrs. [and by ‘it’ i mean......well i mentioned sharps so hopefully people can put 2 and 2 together.]. i...
this is actually from Mon.: ‘ yeah so like i said. i feel better tonight more awake. [i know i feel awake, at night.]. it was cold today in the 30’s. um. For the past. ever since like last Wed. i...
been a wk. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
well. it’s been a wk. since stevie was sent to.the great doghouse in the sky. a little longer actually.
so. elephants. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
so. elephants. so elephants. one of the reasons i love them is cause they understand mourning. i’ve heard that the entire herd gathers, around their fallen friend. and i’ve also read about cross-...
a lot like Pat. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
a lot like Pat. he was.a lot like Pat. stevie that is. he stevie was thoughtful and helpful and funyn. and sweet and so loved. so loved. oh wow.
he trusted us. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
he trusted us. stevie. not every dog trusts every person. if he hadn’t he wouldn’t’ve been as content as he was. he was so good. so good.
he was in my dream. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
my mom’s dog. it was weird. not that he was in my dream but the dream itself. we were in the living rm. and he was to my left all curled up. maybe that means he’s ok up there.
free and i don't know in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
now. we don’t have to worry about stevie suddenly not being w/ us when we go on vacation. bc he’s not.
he was usually so content. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
so my mom’s dog. mr. stevie. he was usually so content. sure every few months he’d get sick. but that was every few months. so on.......sun. he wasn’t doing well. so looking back that’s when we k...
stevie's w/ the moon now. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
or wherever it is creatures go. like i said everyone has their own belief system. [or. some people don’t actually.]. no um. so my mom speaks spanish as do i but please don’t ask me to. and she wa...
so every wk. unless it snows a huge amount or something. i’ve gone to my mom’s. and one of the main reasons i did was to see mr. mr. stevie my mom’s dog. and now. i don’t want to go there bc he’s...
she's got you. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
[i love patsy cline by the way.]. only thing different only thing new. yeah but sometimes. that one thing is a pretty big thing.
and i'm not even a big dog person. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
but that dog. i loved that dog. he was very sweet. and he was so soft very soft. mellow guy. so he was like a cat basically but more loving. [not that cats aren’t loving. we just haven’t had one ...
theology. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
i know everyone has their own belief system. [or actually some people don’t and that’s fine. i was an atheist at one point in time. and it was a dark time for me. so after that. i didn’t want tha...
how i'm doing in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
um i don’t know. how the fuk am i supposed to be doing. i’m like. i don’t know. i’m angry. like i want to destroy something. and like. i’m missing him. my mom’s dog.......he’s the being i want to...
is was. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
i keep thinking of him in terms of ‘is’. or like. in terms of him still being here. like he likes nature. not like’d’].
um. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
i know everyone thinks their dog/cat/lizard/other is. the best in the world but he........he came pretty close. the only problem we had w/ him in his later yrs. is that he didn’t like new people....
