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about the fall on Mon. how i’m doing. long entry by the way. medical talk, symptoms, emotions. well. my bruises have gotten better. [it’s weird that i call them that ‘my’, bruises as though they ...
um. egg. in 2017. got it.
about ‘the fall’. i’m not um. great. If I explain things in odd ways for awhile on here [moreso then usual] it’s cause. that’s just easier for me right now. like the other day i couldn’t remember...
how i'm doing. [fall on Mon.]. in 2017. got it.
i’m. actually i’ve been researching online my symptoms [bruise, frustration, dizziness. i won’t go on] and. falls. and i’ve started to understand things a bit more. everything i’m going through i...
um. wow. so relieved i could cry. i got very, very lucky. in 2017. got it.
so for those who don’t know I fell on Mon. on my back.........yeah. The good news is. it’s minor. [thank god.]. I got very, very lucky. i’m humbled and relieved and tired and scared. everything w...
yesterday. [again.]. in 2017. got it.
um so yesterday was actually quite boring. although after the day before, Mon., a little less excitement was neccessary. i took the right.damn bus to the other store the one w/ metal detectors. ...
so yesterday. peach. in 2017. got it.
so yesterday. was not good. um so i checked my email at 3:20 to find that valerie had emailed me and had cancelled. [that wasn’t the part that wasn’t good.]. the lady knocks on my door ‘can i tal...
more stuff yet again. So like a wk. ago the Peet’s Coffee by my mom’s closed. i’d only gotten something there twice. their tea’s too hot. it’s the best smelling coffee place around. er it was any...
from the 7th - the 13th in 2018
um so on the 7th which was sun. i did my laundry. on mon. valerie came. we went to wendy’s then the store. at the store i got um.oh i got a magazine and plastic bags. on tues. i went out. on wed....
it's a very selfish act. rape. *TW* in 2017. got it.
um. yeah the second guy........he didn’t ask, if i was ok while he was doing it. yes we had sex. but he rushed me into sex. and i wasn’t ready. no that’s when it becomes nonconsensual. he didn’t ...
um. survey. in 2017. got it.
How often do you walk around barefoot? i don’t. When you eat take-out, do you just eat it out of the containers provided? god i haven’t had take out in so long. How do you prefer to travel?...
well. i'm related to a prostitute. in 2017. got it.
yeah um. my mom’s aunt’s [which makes her my great aunt] her......sister [or sister in law? i know it’s not by blood]. no yeah ok. so my mom’s aunt’s brother’s wife. [so in other words the aunt’s...
um. thurs. - sat. in 2017. got it.
so on thurs.i was at my mom’s. um she. was at her meeting thing so we didn’t go to lunch. and my dad was out or actually maybe he was next door at the apt. they’ve not rented it yet. so i left a ...
more stuff once again. oh so. on Mon. I gave Valerie a note on it w/ the address of the new store the one we were going to. and she’s ‘is this the store we usually go to?’ no. if it had been i wo...
so my sister's in med school. in 2017. got it.
er no wait she’s not. she’s in regular college. but she’s going to be a dr. yeah so the other day she asked me if she were my dr. would I go to her. and i’m ‘this feels like a trap.’. i say ‘yes’...
pills. and rape. and the milk night. OD. in 2017. got it.
so on the night of.’the milk night’ the night I OD’d. i must’ve......i must’ve had a cup of wine before I OD’d. and then...........um. had the marigold seeds then the pills. i remember downing th...
well now i'm just depressed. in 2017. got it.
ok so this isn’t exactly big news bc i have depression. i’ve had it since i was 15. it’s small news........little news. anyway. ok so my depression’s worsened. like i didn’t want to fukin get up ...
they're hidden. in 2017. got it.
so there’s thing.called object blindness. it’s when someone’s at the store or wherever and they’re looking at like all the chapstick and they can’t find the one they’re looking for. right bc the ...
Yeah Lindsey and Kim. when i told them about.what happened well........they weren’t mean about it but they sure as hell weren’t warm towards me either. like one of the last things I needed was.th...
people were, kindof jerks about it. not everyone. in 2017. got it.
yeah a few people were kindof jerks when i told them about the rape. well ok not everyone. but Kim sortof was. and um. oh and Lindsey C. the owner of the bar. yeah when Kim went w/ me to tell her...
contributing to the rape. in 2017. got it.
so i’m not blaming my friends [/people i know/bar regulars] for what happened to me the night of the rape. well actually it was the next morning.]. but 2 of them bought me drinks........ he boug...
um.......pills. and rape. [so obviously TW]. in 2017. got it.
so before i go on to all the other things that have happened since i last wrote. er blogged. well. the last time I was raped [it’s been a little over 5 yrs. ago now.]. i’m pretty sure.they drugge...
so, yesterday. [again.]. in 2017. got it.
maybe this won’t be an entry where i bitch?.....only time will tell. well and me. anyway. erm so yesterday was.um Wed. [that’s right cause today’s um.thurs. that’s.........right........] well so ...
more stuff, and again. right so. within the last like.couple months i think. [or so.]. i well I was outside the store waiting for the lady to pick me up when a small lady paused, looked me up and...
more stuff, again. right so for those who don’t know. Ty’s my uncle the one who talks a lot. he’s been dating this woman for like about a yr. now i think. he’s my um. my dad’s..........brother. i...
more stuff. So yesterday. While I was by the store w/ the metal detectors waiting for the bus. well when i called the bus for the mystop thing my phone decided to stop working for 5 mins. yeah i ...
