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i don't.......the only explanation i can come up w/....... *Orange in 2017. got it.
I’m not one to acusse [sp?] people of things. But the only explanation I can come up w/ for. If what I think happened in the cab that night.actually, happened. The only explanation I have. is the...
i think maybe. but i don't know. what happened in the cab. *Orange in 2017. got it.
for quite some time. and i’ve never told anyone this till now. The times I’ve remembered us in the cab that night. the night he raped me. i see it like i’m in a dream. disconnected from myself. a...
blame and control. lots of control. in 2017. got it.
so the other thing the safe house denver website thing says. is that people sometimes blame themselves to have control over a situation. [actually they were referring to sexual assault but yes.]....
oh god........alcohol rape. in 2017. got it.
So the last time i was raped i was drunk. i’d gone to the bar gotten really drunk we’d gone back to my apt. and he’d..........yeah. i know. 2 of my friends bought me a drink i think maybe i bough...
yep. it's a disc problem. in 2017. got it.
more medical stuff. anyway. yep. it’s a disc problem sans pain. and the only reason i know that. is cause earlier when i was feeling along my spine i felt this small round circle to the left of i...
ok so this is weird/new symptoms in 2017. got it.
so last night at like 7. or so. i got this weird gastritis episode thing. i knew where, it was but not exactly what untill i looked up and then narrowed it down. yeah it was quite painful for abo...
well. been 3 wks. in 2017. got it.
well. it’s been 3 wks. since i got the TBI.
a lot to tell someone in 3 days. in 2017. got it.
yeah so. an ex of mine NE guy. over the past 3 days i’ve told him about: -the rapes. [well he knows i was not the details] -that i was in an ab*sive relationship/that my ex verbally used me, insu...
maybe..... in 2017. got it.
my dad. was diagnosed w/ asperger’s when i was in college. and, for a few yrs. after i wanted to er ‘fix’, him. well when i came back to denver from college. [i went to college in fl only for 2 y...
maybe i never will. *TBI in 2017. got it.
maybe i never will. find her who i was. before. almost 3 wks. ago. or maybe i will. but godamn this is heartbreaking. it’s like that song by radiohead i love so much. it’s that beautiful and hear...
so. northeast guy. in 2017. got it.
so. northeast guy. yeah over email i asked him um. his opinion on my decision to not talk to Pat’s brother. and NE guy was ‘i think you made the right call’ and somethingn about how he hopes i’ll...
so March is. in 2017. got it.
National Brain Injury Awareness Month. green ribbon. yeah.............
how much more time am i supposed to give it? *TBI in 2017. got it.
from. yesterday: yes it’s ‘TBI’ now. well exactly. how much more time am i supposed to give it. yeah. i know. 3 - 6 months. f**** . [that.]. it’s been almost 3 wks. and. damnit. yeah. time’s a bi...
so. i now have a TBI. in 2017. got it.
once again. this is from yesterday: yes. i’m ready to state it now. write it or. w/e. I now have a TBI.
headache. hallucinations. rachel marty consent. in 2017. got it.
and again. this is from yesterday: so about um. maybe an hr. ago i got a mini thunderclap. i don’t know if that’s a thing. but yeah. i’d felt it coming on 10 - 20 mins. before but the pain wasn’t...
um. kindof a threat. *Depression/SU in 2017. got it.
again still here, 1. [sorry i know i keep mentioning that.]. So......right. when I told Pat’s brother about.that my depression had worsened. i kindof felt like he was threatening me. or i don’t k...
there. wasn't time. *Con. in 2017. got it.
the day i um. sustained the concussion which was almost 3 wks. ago. there wasn’t. time for me to grab onto anything. i remember........slipping on the ice and i’m not sure where my arms er hands ...
ug. today was. in 2017. got it.
and again. this is from yesterday: so um. while i was walking to. walgreen’s i had to stop more then i usually do as. i was having breathing. issues. i think that might have had to do w/ the unev...
and the other thing he said. best ex. in 2017. got it.
and the other thing. my ex said the one from the northeast. was when i told him it had changed me he went ‘i’m sorry it changed you’. wow........yeah. oh ‘it’ being the concussion. again. ‘the ex...
i completely spaced. again. in 2017. got it.
again. this is from yesterday: so when I get back from my mom’s/being out we, do bag checks. [it has to do w/ SI. i haven’t in a little over 4.5 yrs.]. [well ok the lady does them.]. so um last n...
best ex. in 2017. got it.
this is from yesterday: so the ex i mentioned the one in the northeast. we’ve been emailing back forth. um. ......... ............ and he’s ‘i’m sorry you’re going through this. you’re a strong...
movement. and depth perception. in 2017. got it.
from yesterday: For the last. i don’t know maybe 10 yrs. or so. well I don’t like when i’m walking and someone else off to the side is walking at the same time. it throws me a bit. so i’ll stop a...
best ex i've ever had. in 2017. got it.
from yesterday: yeah so the ex i mentioned recently. he’s up in the northeast. i told an ex of mine about a recent event. really sweet guy. and he’s ‘i. omygod wow i’m sorry do you want to talk a...
so. i just told an ex of mine. *Con. in 2017. got it.
this is from yesterday. so. i just told an ex of mine. that ‘about 3 wks. ago i sustained a concussion’. he’s. the best ex i’ve ever had. we didn’t have much in common when we were ‘dating’ but.....
oh please don't guilt trip me. and depression seriously. in 2017. got it.
Yeah so I told Pat’s brother that my depression had worsened. and he said something about............um........ SU idealisation relating to what i’d just told him. i.e. ‘i’ll follow........’. ok ...
